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Woo, back to work today, after a long break, supposingly going to thailand on the 27th of nov due to the crisis there trip was cancelled, all my shopping spirits gone, i was so sad the last weekends, 2 of my favourite heels was bitten by my dog.There goes my $190 my everbest heels.Now i am always wearing the same heel to work, charles and keith in black.Anyway, nose block and sore throat today, i think i'm getting sick soon..gonna get more rest.Tommorow i'm going batam,tonight i die die must sleep hard.hahax, if not i wont be able to wake up for my ferry at 8.30am.. Gonna get back to work, blog again when i'm free..

Hope brian Quinn

Hope by Brian Quinn

When all about you is black with gloom,

And all you feel is pending doom.

When your bones are racked with grim despair

-When every breath is a gasp for air.

Keep on going,

though you need to grope,

For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,

As your will to live has been bereft.

You've lost it all, it's just no use!

You can end it all,

you need no excuse.

But throw away that piece of rope,

And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,

Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.

This is your life and you can make a new start,

By ignoring the brain -

just follow the heart.

Taking baby steps in order to cope,

And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,.

one day at a time,

Though the road be steep and hard to climb.

The hurts of the past -

they should be dead.

The fears of the future are all in your head.

Just live in the present

and refuse to mope

Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

thank you dad

Dad bought Neverfull medium for me . For my birthday and a ang bao .. thank you dad!

why is it so different?

Why is it so different?

why do i feel so different?

i tried, but its not seen.

its seems like to them, its always unchange.

It seems like to those, i am just talking .

But i did, i know exactly what i am doing.

But why always, alone and alone.

Why always be blamed for everything.?

Why do i feel its going to be.....

Omg , nobody can help me,

nobody i wish to talk to !

nobody...

i am down with everything..

nothing seems to interest me anymore,

for whatever its going on now, its seems like an ending.

technology kills.

kills me my feelings.

Plays me around..

stir around like a cup of coffee...

I'm lost,

i lost control of myself.

totally,

now that i feel so hopeless..

i just want to get away..

i dont tag anyone here, because i just want me myself and i...

everyone says life is so wonderful.

why is mine like that?

to think about it.

my life have got more miserable than happiness..

unless. i could learn to ignore .

But i lose myself.

what a disgrace!

i'm ashammed, because i cant and never succeed..

god , please lead me..

i feel so painful, but those, dont seems to know.

those, thought i likes being in this pain , but no.!

i hate it..

but i think of others before i do.

that's why i bear this pain.

but i cant take it anymore.

cant take it anymore.

cant take it any......

-more.......

Blading at east coast park!

While waiting for the two oldies!-william and steven

We are so boring that we decide to take some pictures first..

Well we start blading at 7.30pm so late!

Didnt manage to take pictures because we cant even really manage to play well ahahax.

More than 5 years nvr blade. But i am still better than my COUSIN.. he is so slow! slowpoke..

Lolx. and we went to kallang airport food centre, steven seafood stall to eat seafood, crab, mussels, squid .. stingrays.. wooo so full and went back home after makan. stupid cousin go double O. crazy, he needs to work the next day. he is sure going to be late again!

seems so hard...

It seems so hard to fulfill task,
when nobody knows deep down inside what's going on.
Why isnt it easy at all?

Dinner at MARCHE. guest from thailand AH SO!

After work, steven bring us for dinner at Vivocity's marche, i ate rosti with chicken sausages and 3 FRESH OYSTER.. Met up with this guest from thailand Ah So.. Mr steven wee eat alot of food and he drink quite alot.. so scary. I think he ate too much that he suggest we go for jog and blading tomorrow at EAST COAST PARK.. lolx...Total he paid for $276..

ATTEND: elisha wee, steven wee, ysabel wee, william wee and ah so.

thanks to steven! who ate 2 dozens of OYSTERS! puke...

Out with BABY!

Went out with b today to JB and orchard for movies and boat quay for a drink.

We ate at the sundanese restaurant,-what also dont have!!

We watch this funny movie -TROPIC THUNDER actors, BLACK,STILLER AND DOWNEY.JR

I rate this movie 3/5 stars.. but its really funny and some parts are really gross..

Me and baby went for a drink at arcepelo i think so..hahaxz forrget the name but its at BOAT QUAY. Very long since then, i often drink with baby. Actually i stop drinking already but than now i drink back.sigh. anyway, i will still stop one day soon..real soon. But let me tell you what, tiger always come first when it comes to choice of beer.

And i reach home at 4...woo tired.

thanks dear for always acc me when i want to..Love

It was Elise's precious son's 1st birthday..

Nobody was there except me and clair!!!

LOLX..

Stupid dog....

I went out to fetch my grandmother from auntie house and when i reach home,

the Buddy(dog) suddenly runs out and gave me a scare.!

Behind me is a shoerack, and i hit my leg againts the shoerack due to my reaction ...

I am so angry that i yell and curse at the dog.

Ouch its really painful...

And my mother another typical auntie,

shouted at me in chinese,

EH- COME-BACK-DONT-MAKE-SO-MUCH-NOISE-LA!

i am like going crazy after she said that!

TOTAL BLANK!!!

Things we waste... from IBN QAYYIM

Our Knowledge

Wasted by not taking actions with it.

Our Actions

Wasted by commiting them without sincerity.

Our Wealth

Wasted on things that will not bring us AJR. We waste our money, status,authority,on things which have no benefits in this life.

Our Hearts

Wasted because they are empty from the love of allah and the feeling of longing to go to him, and a feeling of peace and contentment, in its place, our hearts are filled with something or someone else.

Our Love

Emotional love is disdirected not towards allah but towards something or someone else.

Our Time

Wasted, not used properly, to compensate for which that has passed, by doing what is righteous to make up for past deed.

Our Intellect

Waste on things which are not beneficial, that are detrimental to society and the individual,not in contemplation or reflection.

LET US ACT NOW, LET US CHANGE NOW...BROTHERS AND SISTERS...

BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.....

It reminds me of you

Everytime, i log into my blog, i listen to this song REALIZE the only person i think of is my Bf-rab!!

LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!

unlucky

Very unlucky, all the movies that i want to watch is either cant be loaded,not available

,too slow, too blur or lots of excuse like its LICENSED.So unlucky, sO boring at work

nothing to do, and amanda is offline.No one to talk to..

Think i want to buy a fish bowl and a fish and put it on my table,

so that if i am boring i could play with the fish..

Now i am so so so so so BORING!!!!!!

SOS please, somebody help me.!

Barevolleb

Reach office at 12 today,

i went to UOB bank at bukit batok just now..so many people :(

I'm having my tea-break now,

Nutrisoy and 2 wheat biscuit.

Office is so empty today,

janet went batam and malina went back home.

I'm going to www.ovguide.com to watch some movies after my work is done.

Friday night, got no where to go..

maybe have a dinner with baby and than go home straight.

Well where should i go for dinner, feel like going somewhere new..:)

Another 13 days, i will be going to Bangkok for shopping..yeapie...!

Waiting for the day...

Luge---

LUGE!!ONCE IS NEVER ENOUGH

Looking at these pictures, reminds me of the times at luge..

I miss working with all of you.

I can just write, and think of all of you.

Once a luge crew, always..a luge crew in heart...

Ysabel misses all of you..

''human trafficking''

Hundreds of thousands of young women have vanished from their everyday lives-forced by violence into a hellish existence of brutality and prostitution...

Just finish watching this movie.. 9.5/10 stars! It's a must...

After watching this movie, i feel that life is an adventure. You never know what will happen to you the next day. After being humilliated, will YOU be able to stand up strong once again...its hard....

Learn to treasure your love ones, before anything goes wrong its too late to regret. We live only once, so everyday is precious, as time doesnt wait for us. Always always remindd yourself that, every problem there is a solution to it. Dont give up, even if you failed, PEOPLE succeed when they keep trying.

Today you maybe sad about your relationship, work, ur hair, ur face or whatever...but always always tell yourself that time doesnt wait.. make yourself happy.. because you dont know your own destiny..

What will you be tomorrow is already stated.. treasure...

-time doesnt wait for you- BABY wakes me up with this..

life is full of UPs and DOWNs ...

stay strong..i must and i will tell myself this everyday, so it becomes a habit... to improve my way of living LIFE!

MAAF SAYANG AKU....

MAAF MAAF MAAF!!!

Why am i so possesive?

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY AM I SO POSSESIVE AND PROTECTIVE OVER MY BF..
HOW DO I LEARN TO BE NOT POSSESIVE?
DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ALL WOMAN OR I AM THE ONLY ONE?
I NEED SOLUTION AND HELP..
IF SOMEONE COULD TALK TO ME ABOUT IT..
BECAUSE SOMETIMES, THINGS TURN OUT BADLY WHEN I DIDNT MEAN IT!!
HELP HELP

its me

"W henever i get sad or pained enough to cry I cant hold it in no matter how hard i try I just can't. I don't get a lot of friends that way but I just can't help it I mean when I have to i do it I just can't stop it if I want to."

Eugene--

Yesterday , baby pick me up at grandma's place, and he drove to SENTOSA. Today will be the first day i meeting eugene, he's a nice guy,Honest, i think he's romantic due to overhearing some things he said.LOLX. And i am amazed when he could tell what's in my mind, and my feelings.Lolx, at first when i start talking to him, very stressful, as i cant really understands the accent, but after awhile i get used to it. Wish to visit newzealand one day, maybe next year.. Got to start saving money.Yesterday, i think we waste most of our time waiting for othe luge guys, actually is quite wasted..Anyway its raining so my plan to REVERSE BUNGY is cancelled..We took our dinner at 11 plus!!! So hungry, baby got frustrated because plans screwed up.We ate durian and went to mustafa to bring the BIG GUY (EUGENE) to buy a new pair of SHOE! His pair of shoe is terribly torn!! hahax. Yesterday,i got different feelings, and i hate most of them, i want to learn to get rid of them..i will defitenitely find a solution.I dont like it, but i cant show it. I cant.. hmmm.. i dont know why but i dont want to feel like yesterday anymore.!!

Anyway,
-its my first time talking to raama and rose yesterday, they are leaving on sunday, BON VOYAGE YOU BOTH.
-i feel bad about something but i just treat it like nth has happen before.

EUGENE!-
Hope to see you again next time, if there is a chance, me and rab will visit you at new zealand.!

-hope baby feel better today, sorry dear ! ( b, minta maaf,i just care.)

Muacks...

After lunch

Very full, i ate organic rice with curry mutton, bittergourd and tofu...

so full now, feeling regret, my tummy... OMG

now is not 12 o'clock dont know whether am i meeting b later, yesterday he did reverse bungy and swing with his friend from newzealand and both uncle tiong and rudy.

he said, he will bring me go, but tell you what, hahax i action actually i am very SCARED..!!!

i remember that time i took the SPACESHOT with him, mimi, zubair.. wa can die.. heart stop beating for 2 sec... woo, but its a life experience.. once in a life time.. BUT will i do it again tonight? HMMM very good question!..

I miss him, i want his hugs!!!

How i feel at work now!!!!!

I WANNA YELL...

TRYING TO CALM DOWN NOW....

FEEL LIKE HELL!!!!!

DISSATISFACTION....

BUT BABY DONT KNOW BECAUSE HE GOT FULL DAY MEETING TODAY..

DONT WANT TO DISTURB HIM...

ARGHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHHH...

FELT BETTER BY A BIT!!!

IMM DAISO!

Bought hair clips, dustbin, colour pens for only $6 at daiso!!

My lunch

F&N

NUTRISOY-low sugar!

HIGH CALCIUM

CALORIES, 143kcal.

Drink this for your lunch good for health!

so sleepy

In the office now, updating my blog.

Took medicine just now, so sleepy.

If i could rest my head down, i WOULD!

Lunch...

Gonna have my lunch soon, cooking plain porridge and eat with pickles and marmite!
That will be my lunch.. DIET!

After my lunch i will be going down to shop somethings...

1. Wet tissue
2. Make up bag
3. Starhub upgrade line, buy hp if i see any that i like

meeting up baby after work! Its been long ever since i last saw his parents, miss them.. Baby's having a good sleep!!

Well i love you b!

NOOB!!!

i dont know how to use this blog thingy... omg why my friends got all the nice nice graphics and mine is like so plain!!!! argh!!!

First time there...

LOVE,,,

ITS MY FIRST TIME THERE, SURPRISINGLY RIGHT!!!

i will listen and try hard to comply every talks that we had.. ITS important.. i need you too...

water breaker.. i like that place.. muacks.. thank you ..

Thank you love.

Oopx. i didnt go to work today,i am too tired, so didnt manage to wake up. Lucky dad is understanding enough.

Yesterday baby brought me out to celebrate my birthday. We ate THAI food, and went to esplanade to chocolates.. Baby and i finish our food less than half an hour lolx.. Never really slowly munch and enjoy together, hahax, he didnt realise because he's too hungry, and we left the restaurant in 30 minutes time..LOLX. After that, we had chocolate fondue, so we cross over to ESPLANADE. Along the way, he start puffing again.. hahax, thats him..smoke smoke smoke. I love the chocolate cafe.. LOVE IT LOVE IT. will go there again..

We went out for a walk after chocolates.. hahax guesse wad, baby got chocolate stain on his [pants.!!! He is always like that, always stains on his clothes.. LOLX. he went to wash it away, thou the chocolate is gone, but one part of his pants is wet. In order to make him feel comfortable, i said a white lie, I SAID B, ITS NOT OBVIOUS.. DONT WORRY.. lolx, i mean well...hahax, we went for movies- JAMES BOND. so boring i slept.. i think i am tired too. I think i celebrate my birthday for a week lolx.. everyday go back late,, so tiring.. not used to it.. after movies, we went to boat quay, romantic..and then we had a very very nice ending for that day.. its so COMPLETE!

Thank you dear, for this unforgettable day... I LOVE YOU!

I love my boyfriend! rab rab rab rab rab