Dissappointed

I'm at work now,feeling dissappointed about my work.I thought i've something to focus on and looking forward to the day.But after hearing from my colleague, my motivations goes down to 0%.
Everything was arranged accordingly and processing the procedure.But when i heard that boss wants to put my permit on hold my enthu goes down completely.
My father didnt even talk to me about it, he didnt tell me why he put my permit on hold.Not even informing me anything, i am too dissappointed to even call him and ask why.
I am giving myself another 2 months, if i still cant find my job scope, i will resign. I cant take it anymore.
I hope he did this for a reason. And i'm waiting for him to talk to me about it.

AKU CINTA PADAMU!!!

RABITAH & YSABEL

For you a thousand times

Its been long ever since the last time i updated my blog.Did quite alot of things last weekends, i had my lasik surgery and now that my vision is back to normal.But i am afraid, i did not do a good job for my after care. i didnt apply my ANTIBIOTIC daily..oh dear, baby gonna scold me again.. Lots of thanks to my dad, he is always the one paying for me, my diet programmes, my lasik, my school my bills, almost everything and now that i am working for him.With only N level cert, he gave me lots of oppurtunity. Thank god that i've got such wonderful PARENTS. My mum also a wonderful woman, although i know that they dont like me having a malay boyfriend, but i guesse they will know how wonderful me and my boyfriend are working things out.I think things are getting better now, my parents didnt mention or scold me about my relationship anymore, however, time will only tell.i think they witnessed that i stay home more often than before i guesse, thats why they didnt comment much.. well i will really focused on my time management to prove to both party that, they are the LOVES of my life. Without any both, my life will never be complete.. And thank god that, baby's parents are so wonderful. now that i feel much comfortable when i go to baby's house and have dinner. I can feel that welcome, although i am a chinese. Really wonderful, i've never thought all this will happen to me.Because i always claimed that how unlucky love life i've got. But now that my patience, endurance paid off everything. BABY, WE REALLY TOOK THE TIME TO REALIZE THAT WE ARE PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER. bAby loves me i know, but soemtimes he just wouldnt show...Boo..ego.however, when he holds my hand wherever he go, i love him being so protective and possesive.. I WILL NEVER FIND ANOTHER HIM. i love to be hold.. but i want him to know that, i thank him for his patience to our lil quarrels. and want him to hold on tight to this relationship and never let go. Even we were to had a bad quarrel one day. A thousand times i will still be loving you..

Hari raya coming, yeah the first time i am celecrating hari raya.
I bought a baju kurung for 50 dollars. lolx this year budget. but its quite nice, black colour. BABY bought the same colour as mine.. sweet rite..
However, i've got the blue baju too.. its left with lots of bad memories. but i dont know whether should i wear. Baby wants me to wear, he ask me no to LIVE IIN THE PAST.
however it is the greatest heart aches i ever felt.. the pain is still there but as day goes by, with baby's tendering love and care, its healing slowly...
It really take time to heal everything. but i've forgive my man for alll the wrongs he did and believe he is sincere now..

BABY:

dear, i love you although all the lil quarrels we had, past months. the love is strong and is never letting go.

you're the love of my life.!
25 june 2008
ysabel.