Wonderful tonight.....

Meet up with him last night 10.30pm at east coast after 2 weeks. In between the 14 days, we could count the sentences and msges that we had. I thought he isnt putting any effort in wanting things back together. So i am indeed trying to give up on this relationship.Initially i thought that talking on the phone will just be fine after so long, but to think about it, thanks to yvonne, she said to me, no harm meeting, face to face is always better:) Hmmm so i decided to meet up with him.

I used to have fast heartbeats on my way to meet him. But last night,its different, i am so calm and not really rushing in to this. Why is it so. Maybe its been long, and those feeling of excitement or i can say looking forward is no longer there. Maybe i have this mindset that, i for sure gonna cry after meeting him. But surprisingly, things didnt turn out the way i expected. We both actually, compromise and wanted to talk about us. We feel the emptiness, we feel that something is just not right. Gosh, i cant believe its happening to me. We had a calm and cool talk by the beach drinking stout. Stout taste bitter, but that moment its so sweet that i could finish the whole can. Cant believe it. Sounds dramatic but its true la. And i feel that i could finally have a better control of my feelings. After broke up for two months, i learnt alot of things. Alot of useful things to improve myself. Its quite fufilling now, glad that everything is back to normal again, and hope this time round we both will cherish those times together and never back out from this relationship anymore....


lebevolbar 25.06.08