i will definitely remember for life!

The conclusion is over..
Its such a waste,
me myself couldnt believe it.
But the weird thing is,
i can feel the waste but not the pain,
because i know myself what i am doing.
And its misunderstanding.
But his persistence is strong.
Its such a waste.
All effort gone to the bin.


When i feel like giving up, i always ask myself why i held for so long in the first place. Its worth all the wait.. Its worth loving you.. love...

Nothing Compares To you

Unfortunately, i make mistakes easily without knowing that you are so hurt and upset.
I care only for my own feelings, but i've never think that you too will be hurt, it just that you dont show it.I'm sorry(to you)
Fortunately, these mistakes are usually not fatal, its just that its repeated mistakes and it makes you feel so impossible.
Lucky to know that you have this kind forgiving character that i really ADORE.(thank you -to you only)
Desperately, i want to change for a better, but i didnt know that i would make the mistakes again( sorry to you ) reason being, its hard to find someone that is another half of you. You're sweet.(only you)
Grateful to you, talking to me about my mistakes and wanting me to change, Honestly i do want to change and make real plans. I dont mean it at times( dear you)
By knowing this mistakes, action speaks louder than words. I've plans for the OPENING move to spark up the love again.( sincere to change for a better)
Give me another day, to prove that i will reverse the situation and correct those mistakes. ( love )
I dare to shout by the streets full of people that I LOVE YOU, and its really you the one that i want.

NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU!!

FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS...

its getting late

24 feb 09,

Havent had my lunch yet, not hungry. Getting myself a baking oven this weekend and some bakeware.Gonna kill some time, i've been so free. Gonna bake bake bake and bake away all the feelings and eat them..!!

Pressure, stressful , fear.

Each after another, it makes me spin. Mind spinning with lots of problems. I know i cant be perfect, i know i cant change as much. But i am trying and exhausting. Because each and everytime i do the same mistake, i will be reprimanded. So much i wish you could understand me and give in to me. But you couldnt understand. its imbalance. I dont know what to do. I shut myself and ran away. i dont know how long i could run.. i;m tired..

I feel sorry for the times we had. But i know i cant do it all alone by myself.

If only i could have a peaceful one month. no scolding. . . its love life...

I am tired.. good night...

i want my own things to do

Its my dream to always have my own business. But i feel so helpless, i know nothing at all. No one is there to actually help. I tried to be independant, but its this much ( ) only i can do. No capital, No lobang nothing. Seems like, i will have to work for him the whole time. Hate it, i want it on my own... I hate it..

5 years, I WILL give myself 5 years to save whatever that i need and roll it on my interest.( own small business) 5 years.. i will definitely.. have the capital to have a small one on my own.. save is all i have to do now...

Plan change....

Changed my plan, i did not exchange my phone with taufiq.Instead i sold my i phone for $800/- to James. And bought N85 straight after getting the cash..Now using my N85 , likes the shape of the phone, but i think the speaker not that good. Thats the only thing that i dont like about the phone.. Otherwise. its still as good..

final decision

i will be doing a one to one exchange with this guy name;taufiq.

I-PHONE to N96

BUT

from N96 to Xperia 1

Friday, will buy a phone for my mother birthday present..

What phone to buy?

Hmm

Gift of the month...

Recieved a call from starhub saying that i will be receiving a $150 voucher to buy a new phone..
Yeah but i just got my new i-phone, now im changing again.
I havent decide on what phone to get, thought of getting X1 but its too expensive $698 with line..
Second choice will be N85, Third choice samsung innov8.

1,2 OR 3...

priotise....

Neglection feeling is e most unhealthy signs,

i will definitelly be stronger than you..

Life with friends all around me....

One day..

Laughters, quarrels, loud voices, movies, dinner...

smell....

will all be missed.....

It seems like...

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;This love is difficult, but it's real.Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Seems like i could never be the one.
Hearing those words,it makes me weak.
I've got the chance to talk to you, ask question.
You dont seems to like it.
I'm wrong with words, wrong with expression , wrong at talking.
Thats me , you couldn't take it. You want to leave everytime you flared up.
I dont know how long more, i could tell you this much.
We both are tired.
This is the hardest of all that happens in my life.
I dont know what you will say next, i fear, fear to meet up anymore for the time being.
Because, everything seems to be wrong and provoking you.
If my intention is to make your life difficult and upset, than you're wrong.
Its very wrong for you to say that.
Because i fear of your voices and words which are very hurtful. I fear to hear them.
Its hurts. I am trying to think what you think and do what you think i should.
Its time and encouragement i need.

Silence....

chinese new year

Soon, chinese new year is over..
Its another short year ahead.
What will my year be like.
Really wish to do some business,
start up small,
and planned to go bangkok this coming march with my cousin .
Wanna ask baby to come along with me..
Monday blues again today,
after 9 days of holidays...
very tiring, not enough rest..
Latter baby gonna pick me up,
Hope that we will stop argueing..
We both love,
but we just simply stubborn.
But still not so bad,
because its really true love that really hold us on..
really appreciate every effort made..
Much loves...