My lunch

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NUTRISOY-low sugar!

HIGH CALCIUM

CALORIES, 143kcal.

Drink this for your lunch good for health!

so sleepy

In the office now, updating my blog.

Took medicine just now, so sleepy.

If i could rest my head down, i WOULD!

Lunch...

Gonna have my lunch soon, cooking plain porridge and eat with pickles and marmite!
That will be my lunch.. DIET!

After my lunch i will be going down to shop somethings...

1. Wet tissue
2. Make up bag
3. Starhub upgrade line, buy hp if i see any that i like

meeting up baby after work! Its been long ever since i last saw his parents, miss them.. Baby's having a good sleep!!

Well i love you b!

NOOB!!!

i dont know how to use this blog thingy... omg why my friends got all the nice nice graphics and mine is like so plain!!!! argh!!!

First time there...

LOVE,,,

ITS MY FIRST TIME THERE, SURPRISINGLY RIGHT!!!

i will listen and try hard to comply every talks that we had.. ITS important.. i need you too...

water breaker.. i like that place.. muacks.. thank you ..

Thank you love.

Oopx. i didnt go to work today,i am too tired, so didnt manage to wake up. Lucky dad is understanding enough.

Yesterday baby brought me out to celebrate my birthday. We ate THAI food, and went to esplanade to chocolates.. Baby and i finish our food less than half an hour lolx.. Never really slowly munch and enjoy together, hahax, he didnt realise because he's too hungry, and we left the restaurant in 30 minutes time..LOLX. After that, we had chocolate fondue, so we cross over to ESPLANADE. Along the way, he start puffing again.. hahax, thats him..smoke smoke smoke. I love the chocolate cafe.. LOVE IT LOVE IT. will go there again..

We went out for a walk after chocolates.. hahax guesse wad, baby got chocolate stain on his [pants.!!! He is always like that, always stains on his clothes.. LOLX. he went to wash it away, thou the chocolate is gone, but one part of his pants is wet. In order to make him feel comfortable, i said a white lie, I SAID B, ITS NOT OBVIOUS.. DONT WORRY.. lolx, i mean well...hahax, we went for movies- JAMES BOND. so boring i slept.. i think i am tired too. I think i celebrate my birthday for a week lolx.. everyday go back late,, so tiring.. not used to it.. after movies, we went to boat quay, romantic..and then we had a very very nice ending for that day.. its so COMPLETE!

Thank you dear, for this unforgettable day... I LOVE YOU!

I love my boyfriend! rab rab rab rab rab

I can only pray hard

check mike one two

enough of picture taking

shy lah!
forever and ever

i said stop it!jie ying!! stop it

ya ya ya take take take..forever...

Always think about something..

hey you!

SHUXIA!!! mine!!!

ysabel;irene

shuxia;ysabel

shuxia;ysabel;irene

Today's my birthday, going dinner with baby later. Last night i went out with my two GF's.. IRENE and SHU XIA... thank you babes, my ten years still counting good friends.. we had so much to eat.. lolx.. have been eating good food for consecutive 2 days.. After my birthday i will be going on diet.. Well this year's birthday still not as bad as last year. Last year i was all alone.. Sigh.. Months down the road will be quite tough , i cant deny.. I could just pray for him and hope things will really be better.. Its very crucial, and wll be tough, if we could make it, in future nothing's gonna break this bond. Just hope and have faith and at the same time be real patience.. So long as i can feel sense of security, i will be fine... this month ireally spend alot, well got this thing that is real important that i have to settle asap... like before 16 of nov... crucial..

Abg i want to tell you that, no matter what happens be strong i will stay by your side.. don't give up that easily. Things already happen, so relax and solve it.. Much loves.

rabel-- i will wait for the times to be better...

Advance Birthday Dinner With Friends

4 nov 08
i had a great dinner with my friends at villa bali, its suppose to be a quiet place but than the moment we were there, we make so much noise laughing and laughing.
14 of us were there and we only spend $381.25 its cheap i guesse, because the food were great, I think because my ladies didnt order alcohol drinks thats why its cheap. Well we ate all kinds of food, indian, malay, thai and western.. SO full.. i love the place and i want to thank all of them who were there to celebrate an advance birthday...

• Amanda


• Cuiyu


• Angie


• Joanna


• Eva


• Pei pei


• Lanying


• Cecelia


• Clair


• Daotong


• Elise


• Elise's son


• Jasley


• Jiasin

Thank you guys.. much loves.!!

angry

04 nov 08
$30 cab fare to habourfront...
i tell myself i wont take cab anymore...

AND THAN.......

05 nov 08
$28 cab fare to habourfront....
damn...so angry lah!!!

My life is so messed up right now!!!

And tomorrow is my birthday!!

Feel so empty lah... sigh...

PISSED!

04 nov 2008
I took a cab to habourfront, $30!!!!!
damn expensive...
Nvr mind, so i tell myself, i promise not to take cab anymore.!

and than...............................................

05 nov 2008
I took a cab again to habourfront,$28!!!!!!
Damn i'm broke!!
Now this $58 i can do alot of things with it!

well because i didnt sleep well last night thats why..

ARGH!!!

why cant i just concentrate on good things!!!

why am i making my life so miserable...

hate it!!!!

ying...

ying, i'm sorry, i nvr want this to happen, my situatiion now is really bad..

haix.. i hope you could understand why i'm fickle minded at times...

30-oct-08

Today i will be having a final meeting with steven and william.I'm now writing down the questions to bring up during the meeting.Yesterday's Auntie JU's birthday, i called her and wishes her HAPPY BIRTHDAY, may god bless her.. I will nvr forget what she once told me, be strong , i'm touched, she said, auntie treat you like one..LOVE you auntie..

Tomorrow is another day of fun-

TREAT OR TRICK!!!!!!!

last year i dressed up as a ARABIAN..!!!

This year what will i be...........

AMAZING.

AMAZING SKILL YOU HAVE!!!

VERY VERY IMPRESSED..!!! LOLX..

SO WHAT.!!!!

SO WHAT..

SO WHAT...

• hcumosmihteemannawi
• htiwebnosreptluciffid
• tihtiwllitsuoyera

MUCH LOVES!!!

CHEEKY MONKEY

Me and jie ying had a great time at ikea... LOLX.



took alot of pictures and ate yummy burgers and salad..



YING AH YING....



BU YAO NAN GUO, YING WEI, DANG NI NAN GUO DE SHI HOU, WO YE HUI JUE DE NAN GUO.



GUO QU JIU RANG TA GUO QU..



CONG TOU XI HUAN YI GE XIN DE REN..



this complies to me also..



IF ITS MEANT TO BE ITS MEANT TO BE.!!



dont grieve, i'll be there..



MUCH LOVES!!!

cousins love!!!!

well, last night i had a great time with my relatives. Grandmother and my cousins...my closest cousin, elisha..hahax, we talk about how we view life and had great fun. Its been long ever since i had a nice talk with my relatives.Hmm today gonna mit him up again. YEAH!!! grandmother wants me to stay over at her place on saturday, well OKAE!!! gonna have a great time with them.

LOVE YOU GUYS...

cousins love!!!!

hari raya celebrations(at the mosque) BLUE BAJU in the morning

my diary

I'm in my office now, waiting for my dad for meeting.
While waiting i've decided to clean up my desk.
And i found this diary in my drawer,
Oh dear this diary leaves behind lots of stories about my single days..
I dare not open the book,
dont know why.-
Lots of things that he doesnt know.
I'm not sure whether should i give it to him one day.
i dont know what should i do.
Keep it or throw it.
He knows every single thing happen in my life ever since 25 june 08.
but this is the only diary he never read it before.
And this blog of mine,
i'm not sure he is aware.
But if he ever read my blog..
Baby, i want you to know,
you once hurt me badly,
but you healed my wounds day by day.
And i've nvr regretted having you in my life.
95 days ever since we are together.
Thank you for the love and care you showered.
ILOVEYOU!

a key to my heart

Key To My Heart
I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.
I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.
Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key was impossible to find.
That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...You had it all along.

*remember once you told me about key to my heart...

i miss you

I really miss you

I have other friends whom I talk to

but it's not the same

You have such a deep understanding of who I am

I hardly have to speak any words

and you know just what I am saying

I really miss you

i dont know what distanced us apart

maybe the eyes are playing trick on me.

or my ears are too naive to hear.

i believe you and me sense the difference,

but its memories that were left fresh in my head.

I read your say and i can feel you're in pain.

I want to hear from you.

I know you're in pain,

as we've been through that before.

Love is not blind.

you blind yourself in love.

I pray that you'll be strong and find your way out of this game.

As life goes on...you will,,,you will,, you definitely will find e one..!!

i wish for just a rose

I am just an ordinary women who love roses so much.

I love to receive roses from someone i love.

I dont need lots of roses just one will do.. it will make my day..

However, i do received flowers before from guys, but the feelings is just different, yes i do feel happy and touched but its just something amiss there.

Maybe i will feel more delighted when its from my love.

And i'm a more romantic kinda gf.My favourite colour of roses is RED. Old school richy red. So sexy and its show how important i am too him..

Only wished to received it from my boyfriend, Mr.Rabitah....

love is in the air
ysabel&rab ysabel&rab ysabel&rab ysabel&rab ysabel&rab ysabel&rab ysabel&rab ysabel&rab

raining heavily

Wooh, had a hard time walking from the bus stop just now. it was raining so heavily that i am all drenched to work.. i hate it when it rains, because from the distance bus stop to work or mrt to work, there will be muds and water all over my bottoms.. its unavoidable. yesterday i spent my whole day with baby, went to lots of places.. so tired.. hahax. poor baby got to do evac today. but he will be on leave tomorrow.lucky him...unlike me i got to go batam on 25 and 26 and than 29 and 30.. tiring...
hmm, next week hari raya liao.. cant wait to wear my baju kurung, the black one same as him.
was thinking wad accessories to buy..
hope: i hope that he could control his temper and be more patient to those lil things.. cut down his short temper..
but baby i still love you as much.

belle..

ssendas

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it hurts

it hurts, it really hurts, so many times i am feeling it today.. why do you talk to me like that"? why whenever you dont feel good, it seems like you will venge it on me. I hate this feeling. its like a knife poking through my throat avoiding me from yelling at you. I lost control of myself, i think i've lost all my pride when i'm with you.
i thought that i will be very happy today, i think i am not. After so many accumulated feelings, that it really hurts me. I hate this feeling of mine and i know myself that, its unhealthy.
All i can is dream and fantasie me and his perfectness, i think i am running away from reality, i am accepting him but sometimes i feel its too much to even give in. When i feel unappreciated...
I know that i love him very much, thats why i am still here, like what he said, so what love, love itself is not enough. i've really thought through about this... which is quite true..
Sometimes he can be the most wonderful guy and sometimes he is an unreasonable guy.
I forgive him because whenever he tries to be nice again, it melts my heart..
i love him, but.....................................
i want to be close to him now, but i look at him, i dont feel like going to him, because i will nvr know how will he react, i will nvr know. because of his terrible swings that i dont know how long more i can ever tolerate..
baby, i've been keeping my feelings.. because i know that, you wont accept what i have just said.
But it really hurts, serious..
i'm sad, when i look at you talking to me that way..
sad,
bellle

Dissappointed

I'm at work now,feeling dissappointed about my work.I thought i've something to focus on and looking forward to the day.But after hearing from my colleague, my motivations goes down to 0%.
Everything was arranged accordingly and processing the procedure.But when i heard that boss wants to put my permit on hold my enthu goes down completely.
My father didnt even talk to me about it, he didnt tell me why he put my permit on hold.Not even informing me anything, i am too dissappointed to even call him and ask why.
I am giving myself another 2 months, if i still cant find my job scope, i will resign. I cant take it anymore.
I hope he did this for a reason. And i'm waiting for him to talk to me about it.

AKU CINTA PADAMU!!!

RABITAH & YSABEL

For you a thousand times

Its been long ever since the last time i updated my blog.Did quite alot of things last weekends, i had my lasik surgery and now that my vision is back to normal.But i am afraid, i did not do a good job for my after care. i didnt apply my ANTIBIOTIC daily..oh dear, baby gonna scold me again.. Lots of thanks to my dad, he is always the one paying for me, my diet programmes, my lasik, my school my bills, almost everything and now that i am working for him.With only N level cert, he gave me lots of oppurtunity. Thank god that i've got such wonderful PARENTS. My mum also a wonderful woman, although i know that they dont like me having a malay boyfriend, but i guesse they will know how wonderful me and my boyfriend are working things out.I think things are getting better now, my parents didnt mention or scold me about my relationship anymore, however, time will only tell.i think they witnessed that i stay home more often than before i guesse, thats why they didnt comment much.. well i will really focused on my time management to prove to both party that, they are the LOVES of my life. Without any both, my life will never be complete.. And thank god that, baby's parents are so wonderful. now that i feel much comfortable when i go to baby's house and have dinner. I can feel that welcome, although i am a chinese. Really wonderful, i've never thought all this will happen to me.Because i always claimed that how unlucky love life i've got. But now that my patience, endurance paid off everything. BABY, WE REALLY TOOK THE TIME TO REALIZE THAT WE ARE PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER. bAby loves me i know, but soemtimes he just wouldnt show...Boo..ego.however, when he holds my hand wherever he go, i love him being so protective and possesive.. I WILL NEVER FIND ANOTHER HIM. i love to be hold.. but i want him to know that, i thank him for his patience to our lil quarrels. and want him to hold on tight to this relationship and never let go. Even we were to had a bad quarrel one day. A thousand times i will still be loving you..

Hari raya coming, yeah the first time i am celecrating hari raya.
I bought a baju kurung for 50 dollars. lolx this year budget. but its quite nice, black colour. BABY bought the same colour as mine.. sweet rite..
However, i've got the blue baju too.. its left with lots of bad memories. but i dont know whether should i wear. Baby wants me to wear, he ask me no to LIVE IIN THE PAST.
however it is the greatest heart aches i ever felt.. the pain is still there but as day goes by, with baby's tendering love and care, its healing slowly...
It really take time to heal everything. but i've forgive my man for alll the wrongs he did and believe he is sincere now..

BABY:

dear, i love you although all the lil quarrels we had, past months. the love is strong and is never letting go.

you're the love of my life.!
25 june 2008
ysabel.