Ignite!

We're back together and we will chrish for sure.
He will be so busy with his work and me, will be just staying home and find things to do.
I tried baking few days ago , the cookie never work. ah!!!
Got a new recipe just now, going to bake again when i reach home.

I dont know whether am i happy now.
I couldnt adapt to staying home so often,
I will really try..

Most of my time is surrounded by walls.
Morning , noon, evening, night!!
Suffocation no breathing...
Shag..

I need to run under the rain.. to wash away everything!!
Its so heavy...

I DECRIBE MYSELF AS A LONER!

hahax i am afraid of being lonely!

i will definitely remember for life!

The conclusion is over..
Its such a waste,
me myself couldnt believe it.
But the weird thing is,
i can feel the waste but not the pain,
because i know myself what i am doing.
And its misunderstanding.
But his persistence is strong.
Its such a waste.
All effort gone to the bin.


When i feel like giving up, i always ask myself why i held for so long in the first place. Its worth all the wait.. Its worth loving you.. love...

Nothing Compares To you

Unfortunately, i make mistakes easily without knowing that you are so hurt and upset.
I care only for my own feelings, but i've never think that you too will be hurt, it just that you dont show it.I'm sorry(to you)
Fortunately, these mistakes are usually not fatal, its just that its repeated mistakes and it makes you feel so impossible.
Lucky to know that you have this kind forgiving character that i really ADORE.(thank you -to you only)
Desperately, i want to change for a better, but i didnt know that i would make the mistakes again( sorry to you ) reason being, its hard to find someone that is another half of you. You're sweet.(only you)
Grateful to you, talking to me about my mistakes and wanting me to change, Honestly i do want to change and make real plans. I dont mean it at times( dear you)
By knowing this mistakes, action speaks louder than words. I've plans for the OPENING move to spark up the love again.( sincere to change for a better)
Give me another day, to prove that i will reverse the situation and correct those mistakes. ( love )
I dare to shout by the streets full of people that I LOVE YOU, and its really you the one that i want.

NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU!!

FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS...

its getting late

24 feb 09,

Havent had my lunch yet, not hungry. Getting myself a baking oven this weekend and some bakeware.Gonna kill some time, i've been so free. Gonna bake bake bake and bake away all the feelings and eat them..!!

Pressure, stressful , fear.

Each after another, it makes me spin. Mind spinning with lots of problems. I know i cant be perfect, i know i cant change as much. But i am trying and exhausting. Because each and everytime i do the same mistake, i will be reprimanded. So much i wish you could understand me and give in to me. But you couldnt understand. its imbalance. I dont know what to do. I shut myself and ran away. i dont know how long i could run.. i;m tired..

I feel sorry for the times we had. But i know i cant do it all alone by myself.

If only i could have a peaceful one month. no scolding. . . its love life...

I am tired.. good night...

i want my own things to do

Its my dream to always have my own business. But i feel so helpless, i know nothing at all. No one is there to actually help. I tried to be independant, but its this much ( ) only i can do. No capital, No lobang nothing. Seems like, i will have to work for him the whole time. Hate it, i want it on my own... I hate it..

5 years, I WILL give myself 5 years to save whatever that i need and roll it on my interest.( own small business) 5 years.. i will definitely.. have the capital to have a small one on my own.. save is all i have to do now...

Plan change....

Changed my plan, i did not exchange my phone with taufiq.Instead i sold my i phone for $800/- to James. And bought N85 straight after getting the cash..Now using my N85 , likes the shape of the phone, but i think the speaker not that good. Thats the only thing that i dont like about the phone.. Otherwise. its still as good..

final decision

i will be doing a one to one exchange with this guy name;taufiq.

I-PHONE to N96

BUT

from N96 to Xperia 1

Friday, will buy a phone for my mother birthday present..

What phone to buy?

Hmm

Gift of the month...

Recieved a call from starhub saying that i will be receiving a $150 voucher to buy a new phone..
Yeah but i just got my new i-phone, now im changing again.
I havent decide on what phone to get, thought of getting X1 but its too expensive $698 with line..
Second choice will be N85, Third choice samsung innov8.

1,2 OR 3...

priotise....

Neglection feeling is e most unhealthy signs,

i will definitelly be stronger than you..

Life with friends all around me....

One day..

Laughters, quarrels, loud voices, movies, dinner...

smell....

will all be missed.....

It seems like...

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;This love is difficult, but it's real.Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Seems like i could never be the one.
Hearing those words,it makes me weak.
I've got the chance to talk to you, ask question.
You dont seems to like it.
I'm wrong with words, wrong with expression , wrong at talking.
Thats me , you couldn't take it. You want to leave everytime you flared up.
I dont know how long more, i could tell you this much.
We both are tired.
This is the hardest of all that happens in my life.
I dont know what you will say next, i fear, fear to meet up anymore for the time being.
Because, everything seems to be wrong and provoking you.
If my intention is to make your life difficult and upset, than you're wrong.
Its very wrong for you to say that.
Because i fear of your voices and words which are very hurtful. I fear to hear them.
Its hurts. I am trying to think what you think and do what you think i should.
Its time and encouragement i need.

Silence....

chinese new year

Soon, chinese new year is over..
Its another short year ahead.
What will my year be like.
Really wish to do some business,
start up small,
and planned to go bangkok this coming march with my cousin .
Wanna ask baby to come along with me..
Monday blues again today,
after 9 days of holidays...
very tiring, not enough rest..
Latter baby gonna pick me up,
Hope that we will stop argueing..
We both love,
but we just simply stubborn.
But still not so bad,
because its really true love that really hold us on..
really appreciate every effort made..
Much loves...

dont do this!

Dont do this to any WOMEN.

Its their nature to talk and complain alot!

LIFE

"EACH DAY IS A NEW LIFE. SEIZE IT . LIVE IT."

words kept inside me ...

I kept some words within me,
not sharing with u,
so that u wont have a heavier burden.
Nobody knows what i'm thinking of last night,not even u, the precious u,
Sorry,i tried to control, control the situation.
But i still shed in the end.
Sorry to make u feel uneasy.
I will talk to you someday,one fine day.
I love you!

Seize it! live it !

Did medi ,pedi and dyed my hair yesterday. Sit untill tired. Chinese new year next tuesday, so fast its another year. wow..Going back to malaysia this friday, yeah miss my great grand mother so much.. !!

Meeting boyfriend later! hmm hope dont quarrel if not very sianx !

Quote of the day-
"throw back the shoulders,let the heart sing, let the eyes flash, let the mind be lifted up, look upward and say to yourself...nothing is impossible!"
-_________ (forget the person's name)

Going to watch Little nyonya now.. lolx...

its been long

Life has been real good and busy meeting boyfriend recently.
Dont feel like blogging recently,
heard lots of news about my friends.
Sometimes i dont understand how to talk to them,
hope one day they will realize whats right and wrong.
Choose your right friends if you couldnt have self control.
Life's too short to waste time doing nothing .
Having that kind of disease isnt easy but you made it so easy, thou i dont know you well, but i feel sad for u that u're wasting ur beautiful life.
Sry..

Angry

Waited for so long, eveytime like that, meeting at 2pm but in the end untill now 3.30pm havent even hear from him..so angry, no time management, working under this kind of people just simply sucks.Both also the same, damn, one never even update anything about the salary, busy with his own things helping others but forget or neglected about the own company..damn, really regret never study hard, if even harder working with the same first name.. sigh.. gonna calm down and stay cool!!!!

GRRRR!!!!!

Moonlight Resonance

Watching Moonlight Resonance right now.

Its a family affairs drama-very nice

Watch it at http://www.mysoju.com/ ! !

Sure you wont regret!!The new series will focus on Lee Sze Kei getting her family back together in the background of bakery business. A big emphasize is put on Lee Sze Kei's relationship with her husband Ha Yu and kids Moses Chan, Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung, Fala Chen, Lai Lok Yi, Vincent Wan and Ha Yu's stepdaughter Linda Chung, besides her relationship with her adversary Michelle Yim and sister Susanna Kwan.Romantic plots include Kate Tsui (Susanna Kwan's daughter) fighting against Tavia Yeung for Moses Chan, whilst she will also be involved with Chris Lai. There will be conflict between Raymond Lam and Bosco Wong (Linda Chung's colleague) for Linda Chung as Bosco Wong interferes as the third party between the loving pair. Susanna Kwan's character will have "sister-brother" relationship with Wayne Lai and Louis Yuen, meanwhile Fala Chen in her challenging role as a 'mute' girl will be romantically linked with Dexter Young.Throughout the series, Lee Sze Kei will try to run a steady business on her own in a bakery shop while her other family members live out a dream life with a billion-dollar fortune and big house. Lee Sze Kei has the custody of Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung and Fala Chen, whilst Ha Yu has the other children. The series also focuses on Susanna Kwan, from her good heart, plotting "evil" ideas to get the family back together, while Michelle Yim plots to have the family stay apart from each other. Lee Heung Kam doesn't make things any easier as she prefers his son (Ha Yu) to have Michelle as his wife than Lee Sze Kei. They frequently call Lee, "that fat thing" and family problems will arise when the family meet each other again.SynopsisThe new series will focus on Lee Sze Kei getting her family back together in the background of bakery business. A big emphasize is put on Lee Sze Kei's relationship with her husband Ha Yu and kids Moses Chan, Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung, Fala Chen, Lai Lok Yi, Vincent Wan and Ha Yu's stepdaughter Linda Chung, besides her relationship with her adversary Michelle Yim and sister Susanna Kwan.Romantic plots include Kate Tsui (Susanna Kwan's daughter) fighting against Tavia Yeung for Moses Chan, whilst she will also be involved with Chris Lai. There will be conflict between Raymond Lam and Bosco Wong (Linda Chung's colleague) for Linda Chung as Bosco Wong interferes as the third party between the loving pair. Susanna Kwan's character will have "sister-brother" relationship with Wayne Lai and Louis Yuen, meanwhile Fala Chen in her challenging role as a 'mute' girl will be romantically linked with Dexter Young.Throughout the series, Lee Sze Kei will try to run a steady business on her own in a bakery shop while her other family members live out a dream life with a billion-dollar fortune and big house. Lee Sze Kei has the custody of Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung and Fala Chen, whilst Ha Yu has the other children. The series also focuses on Susanna Kwan, from her good heart, plotting "evil" ideas to get the family back together, while Michelle Yim plots to have the family stay apart from each other. Lee Heung Kam doesn't make things any easier as she prefers his son (Ha Yu) to have Michelle as his wife than Lee Sze Kei. They frequently call Lee, "that fat thing" and family problems will arise when the family meet each other again.

Friday

Today grandfather is coming to my house from malaysia,because we are going to korea together this coming sunday 8.00am flight got to wake up at 4 to prepare and take taxi at 5 because we've to reach the airport at 6 to meet up with the tour guide.Days drew nearer to the day when i've to leave for Korea,but i'm not feeling excited at all i dont know why.Cant bear to leave this place although its only 8 days. I know i will be missing here alot..8 days, cant talk to baby or see baby face,gonna miss him to the max, and my maid Sari, gonna miss her fats! Yesterday played mahjong at jasley place, wa lau damn no luck, lose $130 sad, thought can win some money but than :( lose, bodoh hor.. hahax! heartapin lehx, but its like that, its either win or lose..woo hoo..bet i will stop for awhile..hahax. no money.. this month thought can save alot but in the end all no more again.. still owe singtel $600 phone bill and must give mommy $400 somemore next month,hur hur,die ah!! money money not enough.. think about other things to earn some money..Anyway, hope today i can get my 16gb I-phone, i get it for free, daddy give..hahax, if not i have to wait untill i come back from korea than got the 16gb i-phone..hmm, chinese new year is one month away, havent get any new clothes yet and i am afraid i will gain weight if i go korea..because the weather there is 4 degree celcius so when its cold its easier to get hungry..I cant have the mind set like last year whereby i tell myself that Holiday mahx, must enjoy, eat only later than decide how, But in the end came back, step onto the weighing machine!!!W-T-HELL gain 5KG.!!! look myself in the mirror, what a pig!!! friends all say i look like a pig, clothes all tight..that was the time i'm so worry damn, Mummy says that after korea she will go LONDON WEIGHT MANAGEMENT, so i will continue also to reduce down my thunder thighs.. Woo, when you're young life's good with parents.. hehex..Love you guys, and i want to thank you guys for the 2nd trip to korea.!! MUACKS..

- Picture attached, the four siblings in Wee family

Why is it all about you?

Why is it all about you?

No no no no, no more than this..

I want it so much but i am scared..

No no no no, no more than that...

I miss it so much but .. its still a no NO no NO..

Well Well Well, life still goes on..

I want both..i miss it...

Sometimes, i am tired at times i feel good.

Still holding on to it..tightly..

I will just dream that i am having lots of fun in my life..

All i want now is a nice sleep with beautiful dreams.. thats good enough!!

Slowly, slowly, i will know what to do..

Moody~

Woke up with a bad dream today,the dream seems so real feel so remas because keep thinking bout it,trying to control my emotions right now.

Today there's alot of things to do at work,so time flies..Its the fifteen today so tommorrow will be my Big auntie day sianx!!!

I was browsing through my friendster this morning,i've got 3 different feeling, Angry sad and forget about it. This 3 reactions after reading something.Damn i hate this feeling of mine!Wanna yell!!!!!i dont want to care anymore, like i say, i must remind myself to lead a better life on my own. I will be happy if my life is happy!!!state of mind!

Last saturday, went out with his family, went to marina barrage.Nothing much there but was quite tiring because we played catching, played wrestling, did piggy back..Wooh~tired...Never give a kid piggy back, once is never enough for them..Buay tahan!

Ate tulang last night with him at al-azhar at bukit timah.Delicious...very nice..still thinking about it now,want some more..baby eat 4 i eat 2!!!i eat 1 piece of bread he ate the rest of it..and a 6 coin prata..one cup of Ice tea , me drink ais kosong..Total we spent 11.20 cheap eh..yet so full ..:)

Today, dont know what's e plan, he is on leave for 2 days, we meet so often last week consecutive 3 days. total meet 4 days last week..wa its been long ever we meet so often.
Well maybe today we wont be meeting, even if we are maybe tomorrow go Pump petrol and buy my LAMI..must buy lami gooing to korea sure gain weight..

Leaving korea on 21- 28 going to miss him and my friends alot.. defitnitely..Please take care of yourself for me.

He wants kenzo perfume,hahax i said NO..after i buy you will go clubbing right.!! so no no perfume for you.But the fact i want to save some money to buy other things..

How do you guys pronouce (please)?
PLEASE....one tone.
my young god sister pronounce as P-E-L-E-A-S-E hor... hahahahax so funny!!!

okae, after thinking about thie pelease at least i can smile a little.. hmmm:)

JUSTUS!

♥Simply just us♥

Love

Went out with Danial and Baby last night to sentosa for 3 luge rides.Danial insisted for more rides,but these two adult are getting bored..Lolx.First time meeting Danial,i enjoyed my time with this two fellas..Haha, supposingly this coming saturday will be me and baby's date, but i decided to bring Danial along and have fun together.I love his huge bright eyes!!!Love it..

Well about today,i wont be meeting baby,My two besties wants to meet me after work.sweet!Its been 2 weeks we never meet up.Wonder how are they, got gain weight ? Or any new gossips! Girls i will be going Korea on 21st december.Bet u guys gonna miss me like hell!!! HOO hoo HOOO hoo.. hAVE A great chritmas together!!Love..

Anyway, i'm in my office doing nothing again..Its getting real bored, and the enthusiasm to work its real low and its dieing.Sry, help help help..I need a new life a new work place !! But i will dissapoint my dad if i were to go.Haix how, what should i do? I have been thinking about it but still its the same..HAIX!

Next,i looked at the my friends pictures,They could capture very nice pictures. I like it alot, and now i want to save money and go for photography courses and buy a camera for myself. So that i could take lots of pictures and attached it with my life story..A scrapbook for my future kids to show my kids my life before them.. Whoo, what a life ...

I want it only with you...

Welcome to my paradise....

Just called my friend from malaysia,she will be delivering in another 2 weeks time,time flies and that was really fast.She is grumping about her weight, she gain 20kg hahax,so scary.Kinda miss her, she;s the one whom i could talk to,Memories are still clear back then.Anyway,am gonna wish her all the best, i couldnt go back to visit her,as i will be in korea in another 2 weeks for holiday.All the best my friend.

Well, last night i went out with rab and luge crew.Ate the chicken wing at singal selalu.Shiok one of my favourite. I reach home at 3.30 last night and now i'm feeling really sleepy, buay tahan! Love gonna pick me up after work today, going for movies, but i'm afraid i might fall asleep. I miss my bed and pillow....

2nd january 09 will be Irene, shuxia and me our 10 years anniversary.Thought of a trip to genting but not sure whether dear will allow me to..Have to discuss first..I bet its gonna be real fun..whoo hoo...~~~

Too lazy to type any..

Finally...

Finally, i manage to find my own life...
Anyway, i'm at batam again today,
it will be the last day coming here for this week.
Monday is public holiday,
Hari Raya Haji..
My plans for weekends will be,
Saturday, maybe i will meet up with baby,
otherwise i will just stay home.:)
Love staying home..less stress..!:)*
Sunday, i will bring 5 kids out for sentosa..
2 of them is my brother, Ronald and randall.
3 others kids is my cousin from malaysia..
Headache, dont know how to take care..:(
Later my lunch i want to have otah and fish soup again.. Yeah...
will blog again later or tomorrow..
byebye"")

i want a getaway trip to BALI!

I've always been wanting to go bali.

The place is nice,

people there are beautiful.

The sun there is awesome.

The nightlife there is crazy.

The rooms there are cozy.

The currency there is just so wonderful.

It was a shopping paradise for girls like us!

Omg, i want to go !!

Desperately wanting to go for a trip.

I want to go with my girl-friends.

I-WANT-TO-GO-A-S-A-P...

FLEW......

you've just reach BALI... yeah!!!

Fishy..

Whoa, i currently at batam,P.T WESTEC checking salary.I'm havingmy favourite food ,Slice Fish Soup Bee Hoon. so fishy...lox, and oTAH! whoo hoo...shiok.. i will be taking 3.30pm batam time ferry at Habourbay..will reach singapore around 5.30 after that i will be meeting william to pass him some things. Hmm seem so pack, i like...Anyway tomorrow is friday and i will be still coming to batam again, very tiring and need lots of rest..This week is quite stressful for me,and i will be doing some weekend shopping to pamper myself after solong..looking forward.. well...i gtg back to work.. will blog again... :)

Under your spotlight....

I just want to say out how sick i am about this,

after so long its still the same.

Sometimes i feel its not meant to be,

sometimes i feel your're the one.

I want my say,i want to be heard and not to be blamed for all.

I am telling you, i am getting real sick and tired, and wish to try no more.

If things never gonna change,

i shall bless you with better one.

I dont want to make your life difficult anymore,

aint gonna be the burden no more.

You never want to listen to what i want,

i'm tired of telling you so much,

it's dieing inside..

The days drew near..and time really doesnt wait at all...

I want a new life..

Someone who appreciates...

Sorrow sinks deep inside my heart......