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recent updates.

2009-07-11T04:11:00.003+08:00

i'll be back posting and updating again!

2009-07-11T04:04:00.002+08:00

Hi all i am back,

have been to busy with work recently, i even left my laptop in the office. Too tired and busy to catch up with my BESTIES - shu xia and jie ying. Hee hee, recently updates, Signed up for london weight management again for S$6400. This time round i am paying for myself, so feeling the pinch of every cent.. Ouch. But, its still worth the cost if i could fit into those jeans. Hahax. But you know what, i could control my bites in the day but when it comes to after 10 i am unable to control, i feel so hungry and want to feed some carbo. Oh dear, this is so bad. Went steam bath at times, during the week to relax my mind after a long day. Quite a relax. Though i could feel the empitiness and something is really missing, but i aint afraid, i will go through this , not with someone else, but myself. If my prince were to come half way through this. i would feel sorry, because i am not in the state of wanting a commitment, had enough of commitments and now its time to really focus on myself. Anyway,i recently made my first transaction online. Its the first time i am shopping online Bought a top at JANZFASHION, got the link from facebook, i've joined as fans. So if you got the time, go check it out. Alright its getting late now and i have to work tomorrow. Ciaos.

Sweets---

Madness

2009-07-01T04:00:00.002+08:00

Recently, just moved to the new office located at toh guan , miss working at IMM so much. Way better than toh guan, location/environment. I think almost everything. So much to learn and pick up with, hired 3 new admin just last week and glad that they are slowly catching up. For me, i've got no time to do my task. Had a meeting with the management and discussed about it , well, i have to start focusing on my own task. Before anything went wrong again. Woke up just now at 3.30am, dreamed about my work again, these pressure and stress is following me eveyr where. Damn, i dont even wanna go back to bed, i would rather spend some time and relax eg. watch tv, flip my magazine, go online and such.... Hope everything at work will be more organise after 2 months.!! For a start its always in a mess... Be positive.. dont give up -ysabel.

Thursday...

2009-05-28T09:03:00.004+08:00

I need a get away trip.. Anyone suggest the best place for holiday. Mr robert wee just asked me where is the best place to go for holiday. But damn, i dont think i can join, Fiber optic is launching july, and once its launched, i will be like a crazy women, working almost everyday, even sunday at times, if needed. Eh shit, went swimming yesterday, dont even have e stamina to go for more. Wa lau, how weak is this. Loser. damn, i have to train already!!!

i'm sorry...

2009-05-27T10:14:00.002+08:00

i am forever owing her. I didnt make a good friend. I betrayed her, i look at your pictures, i flashed back to the past, look at the time spent in the class. I am sorry , truly, disgraced. Its all my fault, and its me who ruin the whole thing. I wanted to apologise, how stupid and foolish i am , but i dont know how to. I am really sorry for everything. To you. if i ever see you again, i will run awy from you, to ashame to actually face you. Wanted to email you, but i dont know how to. I feel so sad about myself. And the mistakes that i've done . Its unforgiven. Sorry. Ain.

KindheartedSouls.....

2009-05-25T08:48:00.002+08:00

Came back to work on saturday and sunday, dad bought me a laptop, for my work, so that next week end i dont have to come back to office, i can do it at home. Meet up with baby on saturday to watch Night at the museum 2, same old shit, i sleep through the movies again, haix. Baby got used to it already, but dont know why, that day i feel the guilt, like very bad. Hmm, sorry dear. Sunday, stayed home whole day, play with my new laptop, sleep through my afternoon, eat, sleep,bath, eat sleep again. Hahax, good life aite? simple life.

Today, its another monday, Its like another 5 more days to my weekend, which will be my off days. Wa lau sianx. So long way to go.

Anyway, now than i got to know, my brother they do have a blog.

Eh serious, i feel that, i am a boring blogger , i dont know what to type and honestly lay to upload picture, so haiya., forget it!

Fate chooses your relations;you choose your friend

2009-05-18T09:39:00.003+08:00

16th may 2009

Baby picked me up from home with his parents at 3pm . He's bringing me to one of his buddy's wedding loated at woodlands.Its my first time attending malay wedding lunch. Very excited about it and looking forward to see how is it like.BUT first of all, you guys out there who always read my blog should understand that i seldom take pictures.Hahax, wait for me to get my digi-cam first ok. than i will update a more interesting blog.Ok back to wedding,Reached the place and look at the deco,rabiah(baby's sister)says that its quite a grand set-up for guys side.Maybe its the only boy/child in his family so its grand.Basically is some makan session together, and wait for the bride to come.The food is GOOD!Thumbs up. If i'm not worng its from Hasim wedding catering. Very nice food.The bride arrive around 4pm. And they will hit onto the drum thingy and invite her in.She will just sit there till the guest leave.Got sirat, dangdut, and salam ceremony,photo taking session. Its simple and his set up its really nice. Gold colour. But the only thing i keep laughing is the groom holding on to a sword.wahahahx. And we left , baby go to work and i go to amanda's chalet. Happy birthday amanda! Everyone is not there on time,and i guesse things turn unpleasant. But whatever la, i went back at 9pm to meet b for movie.. Went back home after that.

17th may 2009

Yoga session at warren country club at 4pm. Last week instructor is a relieved teacher so its not that good. Enjoy the whole 1 1/2 hour session streching myself,trying to reach the ceiling. Lolx. after yoga, i can feel my body is very relax and i feel fresh. Took a cab home, and i'm so so hungry. Ate yogurt, bread, cereal and than rest in my room. Lolx. dad bring us to blooies restaurant at 9mile near bukit timah. Love that place. Supposingly meeting baby , but my stomach cramp again and i cancel meeting him. Reach home around 9.45pm . Went to my room, watch tv, play bejewelled. Slowly dozzed off. Missed b alot. dont know why.wahahax. and woke up around 2.30am and cant get to sleep till 5am, wa lau. and i am late for work this morning , what the hell.

Today's amanda operation . Hope everything goes well for her. And i could understand how she is feeling right now. Tense, scared. But everything will be bettter after removing the tumour. Love... be strong: )

OK.gonna get back to work now. body aching man.!

Monday is a long day for me!!!

Angels and Demons

2009-05-17T03:10:00.002+08:00

Watched Angels and Demons at 11.30pm just now at golden village grand (great world city)

I slept for the first part of the movie and woke up after 45 mins. I'm always like that.I always sleep in the movies.Thats me,maybe i'm tired. B was so focused from the start of the movie till the end. I woke up after 45mins, and thought of going back to bed, but i tried to watch awhile, seee if i like the movie a not. Damn, the movie is SO GOOD! I nvr feel bored or gets boring, because there is so much to see, i feel so tense because of the play. Can you imagine that. Its fantastic. Its worth the money. Thought of watching it again but i guesse its a waste of money.So i decide to wait , online to watch it. Hmmm, after all its a 5 THUMBS up movie. Friends and family members are reccomended to watch it. During the movie, i can feel the tich pain around my abdomen and pot belly. I always have this kinda pain. I think its because i drink coffee before that. My stomach cant take coffee i guesse. Hmmm, baby bought me minyak kapak(malay, feng you (chinese, axe oil(english .. Lolx. and i applied,massage downwards and slept through the journey back home. B is always nice, he will definitely send me back home and wait for me to get in my house before he drives off. He really change alot. He love me differently and i feel the blessed. Though we still quarrel of tiffed often over small things. but guesse thats us. Its us, we are like that, so cant blame it lah! Haha, so long as after every little tiff, we both know how to sayang/love/apologise/pamper/ whatever it is to make the sparks back, its still ok. I love you b. Ok i'm going to bed now. LOVES.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA ANG.. MAY GOD BLESS YOU FOR YOUR MONDAY OPERATION. BE STRONG!

Sad to know...

2009-05-14T09:48:00.002+08:00

Two weeks ago , i got to know that amanda's stomach got a 9cm tumour.And she told me that 13 may 2009 she will know the result. Yesterday she msged me , telling me that, its not a good sign. And going back to the hospital today for scope again. Kinda worried for her! Just msged her to be strong. Hope everything will be fine for her.

AND!!!!!

this morning, browsing my facebook, saw my friend shout out. Having a tumour at my back, going through operation, SCARED and cant get to sleep. She's m secondary classmate, used to be close with her. Haix. I Could only ask her to be strong. And now i began to worry for myself. I know i cant be strong when this kind of things happen to me.

Life is full of huge surprises...

2009-05-14T08:53:00.000+08:00

Heavy heads, spinning stomach!!

2009-05-14T08:44:00.002+08:00

The may of each year is a NIGHTMARE.!! wahahahx.

So many birthdays to attend and its like conseqetively every week one..

Birthday babies:

Amanda, Bao You, Cui Yu, Clair, Pamela, Rabitah("v")

Mother's day celebration.

All about money..!! Woohoo~ Wonder if i nvr work how am i suppose to survive.

But i couldnt make it for Amanda and Clai's birthday party, sorry man. I got dinner and wedding dinner to attend. Hmm whatever it is, i will make it up to you guys.

Anyway, its been real long ever since i last updated my blog.

Work have been real busy nowadays, more jobs coming in and the pressure of question from those bosses. Its scary! Well currently, looking up for office space for rent/sale.Prefer Toh guan area. If any of you reading up this post , got any agents to recommend or office for lease please call or leave a comments behind.

Requirements

RENT: 1000 to 1300 SFT
Not more than $2000 rental per month

BUY: 2800 to 3000 SFT
Around 500K to 600K

Urgently!!!

Went back there...

2009-05-04T10:01:00.002+08:00

Sunday

spent my day with randall , brought him to movies Xmen. Its nice, highly recomended thou some scene its abit exagerating but its still good. Brought him to carl's junior for lunch and straight after lunch eat popcorn! Sinful~ After movies, called baby asking for luge tickets. Randall's motive today is to go luge, for some rides. Went back there, seems like a stranger to everyone. I feel so different, dont know whether is it me, or the guys. Wonder whats behind them. Damn, feel so weird, Didnt talk much to them and i did two rides. Randall took another ride with baby as for me,i went to coastes to buy them some food. Bought fish and chips for $18 and beef bolognese(kids) $11 damn expensive. Claim claim claim, i need to claim. Hahax. Reach home at around 9. So slpy when i drove my way back home...

- Very lazy to blog nowadays.. maybe there is too much to do at work...

Current mood: shag,slpy mood! Long monday~~~!!!

Wonderful tonight.....

2009-04-24T09:18:00.002+08:00

Meet up with him last night 10.30pm at east coast after 2 weeks. In between the 14 days, we could count the sentences and msges that we had. I thought he isnt putting any effort in wanting things back together. So i am indeed trying to give up on this relationship.Initially i thought that talking on the phone will just be fine after so long, but to think about it, thanks to yvonne, she said to me, no harm meeting, face to face is always better:) Hmmm so i decided to meet up with him.

I used to have fast heartbeats on my way to meet him. But last night,its different, i am so calm and not really rushing in to this. Why is it so. Maybe its been long, and those feeling of excitement or i can say looking forward is no longer there. Maybe i have this mindset that, i for sure gonna cry after meeting him. But surprisingly, things didnt turn out the way i expected. We both actually, compromise and wanted to talk about us. We feel the emptiness, we feel that something is just not right. Gosh, i cant believe its happening to me. We had a calm and cool talk by the beach drinking stout. Stout taste bitter, but that moment its so sweet that i could finish the whole can. Cant believe it. Sounds dramatic but its true la. And i feel that i could finally have a better control of my feelings. After broke up for two months, i learnt alot of things. Alot of useful things to improve myself. Its quite fufilling now, glad that everything is back to normal again, and hope this time round we both will cherish those times together and never back out from this relationship anymore....

lebevolbar 25.06.08

RiddLe--

2009-04-09T10:50:00.002+08:00

Of the following words, which does not belong and what do the others have in common?

EVIL,FAT,ROMAN,DOUBLE,HANDLEBAR,SWEET,CACTUS,CAULI FLOWER .

I CANT STOP IT

2009-04-08T18:28:00.001+08:00

i am back from bali, am i am still the same. it got worse, haix. help me man. I cant take it anymore.!

Pictures

2009-03-31T14:28:00.005+08:00

Numberlogy- facebook

2009-03-31T12:24:00.000+08:00

Your Life Path Number is 7
Your Life Path Number represents the path you should take through life and the talents and skills you have to make your journey a rewarding one.
Having a 7 Life Path makes you a seeker of truth and knowledge. You enjoying exploring the mysteries in life and strive to find answers to the unknown. You are an analytical thinker and enjoy spending time alone with your thoughts. Avoid letting the isolation go to extremes.

Positive Traits
Analytical, Mystical, Prepared, Wise
Negative Traits
Aloof, Cynical, Superficial, Fussy
Associations
Tarot: Chariot
Astrology: Jupiter, Neptune, Mercury, Libra
Rune: Ehwaz
I Ching: #52 Ken
Tree of Life: Netzach, Victory
Hebrew Letter: Zayin, Ayin
Shamanism: Crab, Horse, Falcon, Tortoise
Element: Water
Alchemy: Bronze, Silver, and Gold
Aura: Red
Color: Purple
Gemstone: Amethyst
Crystals: Violet Rutile
Months: July
Week Day: Saturday
Lucky Numbers: 2, 4, 5, 7, 16, 25, 34, 43, 52, 61, 70, 79, 88, 97, 106
Flora: Crocus, Geranium, Poppy, Fern

Badminton session

2009-03-31T11:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to East Coast Park after picking up my dad. Went cycling alone while waiting for him. I rode from macdonalds to east coast chalet and made a round around the chalet and rode up to east coast food centres. And passby cable ski, saw this guy, he can ski very well, amazed. Received a msg from him around 6 i think. And he asked to meet at Fort road carpark. at first i dont know where is it, and i called him, its AT THE OTHER END. oh dear, i was like, whatever, purposely meet up there, so i cycle there , on my way there i am like secretly, foolishly laughing at myself, because its so far, hahax, just imagine the situation. I'm exhausted. Finally i reach the carpark, saw him applying tiger balm on his legs. So i rode back up again to macdonalds, to return the bike and changed into jogging shoes and jog back down to the carpark.Did some cool down and streching and finally its over. Sweat like pig, face so red. Didnt take any pictures, well you guys know me la, i dont really take pictures, unless the mood is there. Hahax.

NOTICE: east coast food centre is closed for SPRING CLEANING.

We didnt manage to get my sugarcane lemon, he drove to westcoast park and he bought me fruits and sugarcane. Some unpleasant moments on the way there, but its okay. Manage to talk it out. We have to relax. Be calm and cool.

Plan for today, we are going for badminton session at Warren COuntry Club later , i've booked the court from 5.30 to 7.30 Should be enough for me.He will pick me up later at 5.30pm.

Anyway,i have to buy the strap for my handle later for my badminton rackets, my maid use green tape to tape the handle. Hahax, so pathetic man.

Ok ok, i have to toned up my body, stay healthy and be more confident in myself. HIGHER SELF ESTEEM PLEASE~

Ok , dad's in the office now, got to go... bye

Monday-------

2009-03-30T14:23:00.002+08:00

Another monday...

went to pandan loop to collect my dad's car, and drove to work after that. Picking my dad at 4pm budget terminal later ( tr105 ). Brought my jogging shoe, pants, clothes for jog later with him. Msged him just now about the plans. But guesse he is not awake, I wanna cycle and jog around east coast park later, after that we will have our dinner. Wooo nice plan, healthy aint we.? Loving it. Ok i got to go now, off to the bank to do some things. Blog again tomorrow..

Labels: I'malwayslookingforwardtomeetyou..

talkin gtalking tallking talk....

2009-03-30T13:38:00.003+08:00

Friday 27 march 09

It was a bad day for me, have been really stressful and suffering from constipation now,damn.Irregular meals recently, have been eating alot, ate chocolates and chips to make my day. Never take proper meals, but just junk food.

- iwannahaveabetterme

Chatted with amanda on skype just now , during work time. Meeting her after work for steam bath session with Phelia. Took a few pictures but i left my camera at home, maybe tomorrow i will upload all the pictures.

Everyone got their own problems in life. My problem now is, me myself and i, how am i going to handle it..? I've got my own way.. Determination.. Time dont wait....

Reached home at around 10pm, steam away some fats and my body feel abit more relaxed, at least its easier to get to bed..

Saturday 28 march 09

Stayed home and accompanied my family members. Went steam bath again with grand mother and mom. Yeah, went back home and i layed on my bed, msged him before i sleep, and waiting for his msg even i am still sleeping. But , i never received any.. Hmm, jie ying working at KM8 last party and she must be tired. Received 3 msges from friends, some really shocked me and i was wondering what is happening to her now, i phoned her but she is not responding. Please tell me you're alright.Guesse, you're in a mess now. I want to meet you soon and really please tell me more, i care. Went back to bed after replying those msges.And tell you wad, i am sleeping in my mom's room, suddenly just dont feel like being alone. I've been lonely..Hmmm but i know its gonna be alright.

Sunday 29 march 09

Woke up at 10am, look at my sent items. And i realise that, i dont even know what am i typing.When someone is sleeping, they usually type whatever is in their mind.Hahax. Basically all dreams. Went to lot one to but a list of clothes at Cotton On , 4 shorts , 2 tops, 1 belt. Very nice.:) It cost me only $99.45. Not that bad la, but now i am a bit tight already , because i am going bali this thursday you see, and next month i will have to be very very thrifty. Ahhh.. Went tanning after that, and came back home very quickly, no mood, feel so lost. But i still manage to go through and controlled my feelings, reached home at around 3 plus. Hmm, rest at home, gather with my grandma and relatives, carry my cute cousin , play with him. Make myself alittle happier. Hmm, and i took a rest on my sofa.Hmm, shiok. And i received a msg from him, and we went for movies at cineleisure (unborn) at 9.30pm. The movie is good, very shocking. He acted as if he is ok, but hahax,he got shocked too.Hahax, well, its the first time i open my eyes almost for the whole movie, i think 3/4 of the movie my eyes were opened. Hmm not bad, lolx. And went out with him later on till late in the morning. Hmm, i love him..I'm trying hard thou.. Just bear with it..:)

labels: its gonna be alright, bear with it.:) be strong.:) Control your feelings:) Use your brain to think and not your heart.:) Control those negative feelings:)

A babe in hands.... Tan Yan Kai

2009-03-30T10:52:00.005+08:00

Let me show you some pitures of my little cousin. This is the only cousin that i am able to see him grow up day by day. Because his house are just a few Kilometres away from mine..

Bali trip on 2 april with BFF (S) (I)

2009-03-27T14:38:00.002+08:00

Before going to bali, already we met up with some challenges, the air ticket problems, hotel problems, now about the itinery. Well we need to compromise. This trip to bali is rather stressful, i have to bring alot of things with me and let go of all the things man.I've realised what i wanted in life and i know that if those changes are made, i will have someone who truly appreciate it. Hmm about the trip, we have decided to do lots of water sports. Let me show you some pictures that we are intending to do. Here we go...

Fly up high like a bird and shout all you want. Shout out your wish and maybe miracle happens..

Go on this ride, Its hard to not fall or yo umight fly away from the boat. If you could be strong, you can go through it..! Shu xia and Jie ying are you ready???

Snorkelling.. Go go go.. see the underworld.. its beautiful. Life's great.. Talk to the fishes , touch them, and swim with them. A definite THUMBS up!!

jet ski, we can do this in singapore too. But bali's scenery its way better than here. Catch me if you can!

Fly fish, its not as simple as you think, You will fly when the boats starts to pull you. And fly while holding on to the handles.. scary but fun.. UP TO IT girls?

White water rafting at ayung river.. This is the best man. i cant wait for it. We will go through this bumpy road together.

Waterbom park, look look look, scream till you cant talk!

This are the water sports planned, and next we will plan for out sight seeing, shopping,and makaning session...

Well , before we go for the trip i want to tell you both, irene and shu xia. I want to sleep at the corner, so that i wont get kicked by the both of you.....

veena singh

2009-03-26T14:22:00.001+08:00

How I Lost Weight
Veena Singh

I recently reduced about 25 pounds. I did it in a completely natural and healthy way. No, I did not take Metabolife, and no, I did not have to give up eating. Everywhere I go, people are asking me what did I do to reduce. Well, I thought I’d write about it to help anyone who is interested. These tips have worked for me, and I am talking in layman’s terms. Therefore, an expert in the field may not agree with the way I put it across, but I am only putting it across the way it was put across to me.

I gathered my information on a cruise. I attended all the seminars in the gym and spa area. I came to realize so many misconceptions and so many things I was doing wrong. Not eating to lose weight is a big NO, NO. Yes, you do lose weight, but not the weight you want to. Not eating puts the body in starvation mode, and instead of your body getting its daily requirement of energy from your body’s fat, it take from your body’s muscle. When we lose weight, we do not want to lose muscle, we want to lose fat.

On the cruise, I went to a seminar called “Do you have a sluggish metabolism?” In the seminar, they used an instrument on me that took my height and weight into consideration, and it provided me with my body fat weight and percentage, my muscle weight and percentage, and my water weight and percentage. I was told that most fitness places have such an instrument. Due to my misconception of not eating to lose weight, my muscle weight was less, my water weight was less, and my fat weight was slightly more than it should have been.

To burn fat, you need to have more muscle weight. Four or five days a week, I walk in the park 2.25 miles with my friends. Exercising releases endorphins, which actually energize you and make you feel great. Endorphins are a great anti-depressant and relieve stress. If you cannot walk in the park or run, get a bike or treadmill and watch television and work out. I have 3lb weights that I use while I watch TV. The point is build muscle.

By sweating (exercising, using a steam room, zaccuzi, sauna, etc.), you can increase your basal body temperature, which puts your metabolism to work.

Buy a dry skin brush (you can get them at body shops). Before taking a shower or bath, brush on your legs and arms toward the heart, and brush clockwise over the abdomen. Dry skin is an indication of poor circulation, which means a poor metabolism. Dry skin brushing improves circulation. Exfoliating also improves circulation. In body shops, you can buy a sandy like or crystal like cream that you use on your body to improve circulation and your skin (they remove the dead skin).

Since my water weight was less, I was slightly dehydrated. They told me to drink lots and lots of water, which was something I was poor at. I used to drink lots and lots of diet soda, which is horrible, why? : 1) anything made of artificial substances creates toxins in the body which could lead to fat deposits such as cellulite 2) drinking and eating natural and fresh food and drink is the best (avoid canned, pre-packaged food, ready-made foods, and food with chemicals or preservatives). Aim to drink at least about eight 8oz glasses of water a day. Drinking so much water does require you to make more trips to the rest room, but it is worth it. My skin is less dry and an added glow comes on the face. Best of all, it puts the metabolism to work.

The metabolism gets put to work after each meal. I was told to try and have 5 to 6 small meals as opposed to 3 big meals. I was told my daily calorie requirement was 1200(This daily calorie requirement varies from person to person. The instrument they used on me to get my muscle weight, etc. provided this information.), and therefore, my 5 to 6 meals should give me at least that much of calories. Be sure to have a balanced diet including at least four servings of calcium. Be sure to also take a multivitamin daily as well.

One pound is equivalent to 3500 calories. In my example, if I consume 1200 calories in a day, and I burn off 700 calories in a day due to exercise, work, life, etc. I will lose a pound in 5 days.

Here is the information given to me:

1) Start the day with a cup of hot water with lemon juice.
2) Dry skin brush every morning before you shower-always toward the heart and clockwise over the abdomen.
3) Exfoliate 2 times a week.
4) Massage-self massage daily, professional massage once a week.
5) Aim for 30 minutes exercise per day and 10 minutes relaxation per day.
6) Two times a week, soak 20 minutes in bath salts.
7) Try and use the steam room or sauna two times a week for 30 minutes.
8) Food beneficial to liver and kidney – aim to eat two of each group every day.

a.Liver: black grapes, garlic, fennel or dandelion tea or green tea, carrot or beetroot juice.
b.Kidney: fresh honey, cranberry juice/tablets, melon (alone without other food).
9) Limit/avoid common colon irritants/food intolerances: wheat products (breads, pasta, flour), caffeine, chocolate, alcohol, malt, yeast, barley, maize, rye, refined flours, refined sugar, refined starch.
10) Avoid artificial sweeteners, preservatives, and food additives.
11) Eat organic foods in their most “natural” state – fresh fruit and vegetables.
12) Avoid processed, pre-packaged, ready made foods and meals.
13) Reduce fat, sugar, and salt intake.

Aromatherapy detox oils: Juniper, Rosemary, Pine.

TO Lose Body Fat & Increase Muscle

Cardio 3-5 times per week, 35+ minutes
Weights/Toning, 2-3 times per week, 30 + minutes
Stretching 1-2 times per week, 20 minutes

Consistency, Consistency, Consistency

1. 5-6 small meals per day.
2. Drink lots and lots of water.
3. Aim for salad plate sized meals, half the plate covered in veggies, a quarter with carbohydrates, and a quarter with proteins (look at your plate).
4. Take a multi-vitamin daily.
5. The 80/20 rule: Make health oriented food choices 80 percent of the time, other fun foods 20 percent of the time. Or, 6 days on, 1 day off.

Stress & Energy:

Remember, stress is toxic to your body. If you do not take time out to relax, you will prohibit the maximum functioning of your health and vitality, and this will prevent you from achieving ideal form. Incorporate relaxation therapies into your every day life!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2009-03-26T13:35:00.003+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

i've tried it . Have you?

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Try again | Give me more

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2009-03-26T13:35:00.001+08:00

Am i.....

2009-03-26T12:39:00.001+08:00

Am i doing something foolish..?

Wrote e mail...

2009-03-25T11:01:00.001+08:00

Awaiting for the reply calmly, I am really serious about it...

Look at those arms...

2009-03-25T10:58:00.002+08:00

The moment i looked at your right arm, you know how heartache i am? i have to walked away and go up to my room. Tears just streamed down my cheeks, the pictures you put, i couldnt believe it, why are you doing this? What is it that you like about it? I thought that you are not that bad to that extend, but why, why? Brother, we are family, please share and tell me that you've really think about it.... Please....

Reading up and planning

2009-03-24T09:16:00.002+08:00

Reading the Guide book to The Rough SouthEast Asia..

Read up and note down the places where i am interested, usually the adventures and hunts. Thereafter, go online do research about it, confirm the cost and than proceed with my daily itinery. Budget $800 Per person Inclusive of airtickets and accomodation. So we need a very very budget plan/ trip.

Hope for the best

2009-03-24T08:43:00.002+08:00

For things to change , you need to change.
For things to become better, you need to become better.

Read it from yvonne friend's facebook.

A change for yourself and not for others.

Got it from a very close friend of mind.

Keeping hope alive...

For you...For always....

Hope...

2009-03-23T15:18:00.001+08:00

oh , i am crying again , again quietly one corner in the office. Sitting in the last row. I am trying to hide. I cant cry, i cant let them know.. why am i crying again. Rab please forgive me. I didnt mean it.

Scrolling down...

2009-03-23T13:20:00.002+08:00

i scrolled down my blog page and look at my previous entries.. Its all about him.. My life is so much about him. But why does he still leave me with a broken heart..?

Looking back on those times when we both hold hands walking up and down Cineleisure. Movies, darts..

The best memories, KL trip and Party world singing session. Marina Barrage with his family. Danial, miss you so much.

So much memories.. But its all layed low...

Heal the pain and hurt.. And hope one day we will be friends back again.

Should i or should i not?

2009-03-23T13:07:00.003+08:00

Oh dear, the one who have always been there, you looked how i fall and you look how terrible i am right now. Mighty you , though we may not seen each other , but i am really suffering. Please send some guidance. You've been there before , and i know you are still here right now looking at me. I dont wish this to happen, forgive me for the unhealthy doings. You know the pain i am going through. Please guide me, you're the greatest of the greatest. Those emptiness feelings are torturing. I cant do anything because he will still ignore. All i can do , is keep quite and cry. Why must this happen to me. Dear you, convince me please. I am dieing inside again..

Just now i feel ok, but suddenly i feel the pain again.

Why is this happening.?

Oh dear...

Should i or should i not?

2009-03-23T13:07:00.000+08:00

You found me.....

2009-03-23T10:33:00.003+08:00

Get Out Of My Mind.!!

Exercise...

2009-03-23T10:25:00.002+08:00

I've tried many things to get you off my mind, but the last thing that i have not tried is the HEalthy way, Exercise. Guesse that will be the best solution. Take it easy and it will be over soon. Well , my friends all knows that i hated jogging, its a very big challenge. But i am going to try it all over again. Jog , continue to jog constantly even if its tired. Hahax, maybe one day i will have a britney's body. Woo hoo.. I have to stop drinking. My body is tired, drank too much for 2 weeks. Ysabel you can do it, jog jog jog, swim swim swim , and get tanned all you want. I want to realise how beautiful i am again. Well maybe miles and miles far away there is someone looking and searching for me. Take it slow... I will find my other half soon.

- Get tonned up..

- Do things that i dont like ( jog )

- Be more positive. Dont blame anyone .

- Be strong, dont let anyone look down ..

Back to work...

2009-03-23T08:59:00.002+08:00

Irene is finally back from bintan. Meet up with the girls yesterday, picked them up and went to Jurong Library . After so much heartaches, i should go for a get away trip and not to pester him anymore. This trip is so last minute, well i thought there is still room for consideration , but he made things so clear, i shall respect him. Anyway life goes on, decided to go BALI alone next month. And called my girlfriends and tell them about it. Surprisingly i didnt know that irene was so thoughtful that she even updated her blog saying that she is going bali before me telling her i am going alone. Thanks girl... Its time to learn to be Miss Independent. However i will still be going there first for a day, to really release everything and irene will fly to Denpasar the next day and i will pick her up. Actually, i am quite scared la going there alone , because last night we did some research on hotels room, and some looks quite creepy. But no matter what, i am still going to fight my fear. Nothing's gonna bring me down anymore, i had enough of fearing and scaring here and there. Its time to really be brave and go through things unexpectedly. Shu xia is still not sure whether is she still joining, but we both hoped that she will. I am already counting down the days, its so near. I am flying on 1.4.09 , later i will book my air flight and hotel accomodation. Irene and maybe shu xia will be joining me 2.4.09 and we will come back together on the 6.4.09 . This week , i've made lots of plans to make myself real busy, i will be doing my own ITINERY. I never tried doing this kind of things before, hope its going to be challenging and days at bali, i wish it could be aas challenging as possible so that it will make us really think that life is a challenge , we have to go through everything, but be strong. Currently, we've plan , White water rafting, waterbom parks , Surfing lesson. After blogging i will do my research on whether to drive on our own at bali or hire a daily driver. I cant wait to go to bali, i have been wanting to go with him, but we didnt manage to, he have to do his own stuff. But nevermind, afterall its still about me. I will decide everything. No more drinking, no more clubbing, its time for some exercise and tone up my body to make myself look good. And gain more self esteem. Its always good to love yourself. Hey hey hey, i've got to go , doing research and reading some critics about hotels and adventures... Life's good.. Seize it and live it..

Look the other way round

2009-03-13T08:58:00.002+08:00

Look at my BLOG POST Head title.. when we take a glance, you dont understand what is that word. But when you really focused and look at it the other way round its love.. Look here everyone, we must not look at things so easily and dont look at things as if its so simple. No never ever be easy at all times. Because when unexpected problems occur, you will find yourself hard to manage.. Dont ever look at things as simple as you think!! Think further.. think more...

Everything seems so different....

2009-03-13T08:40:00.003+08:00

Why do everything i do have to involve you? Even my password. Oh dear, i've made myself so cheap. I've plan my life with him around but everything ended. Even when i blog , every words i type i have to think about it. Why is it so? What am i afraid about? Why do i have to do this to torture myself. I keep telling myself not to think about it. Keep reminding myself how bad it is to fall now.I have got so much to do. So much to learn, sO much to think. I cant do it with what/who i am now. I screwed up . Damn , wa lau please la, i feel so stress!!! I CANT GET AN ANSWER MYSELF!!! I am afraid, i will be the old me again.. I dont want, i dont want that kind of life. But is it damn stupid too torture myself at home,whereby maybe he is enjoying himself already. Why want to torture myself? He dont sayang you, he just say for the sake of saying! I cant believe after everything that i have done, he still leave. Anyway, i am trying to figure out, what about him that made me love him so much? What about him>? Love sees me die!!! If he can move on.. why not you ysabel? Why keep holding on when he cant be bothered anymore? Why call him when he cant be bothered anymore? Why think of him when he cant be bothered anymore. He wants to leave, it means that he can live without me, I mean nothing to him. If not, he will be like you. Hesitation.. For what do this. stop being a fool !!! Ysabel.. Give those out there a chance.. Wake up!!!

Early in the morning i have to type all this shit about my life.. Look how miserable it is! You msged him tell him so much, you bake and everything. He will appreciate? He will know? He will cherish.? HAAAA.... in the end still putting a stop to everything.. Like nothing has happen before.. Shit you!

I cant help anymore

2009-03-12T08:35:00.002+08:00

I cant help anymore, its normal to feel insecure in every women. I dont see the reason why ou have to do this. The only reason i can convince myself is you are not into it anymore. For almost so many months you kept claiming that i never change. Now that i try so hard you left.You broke us up. Though its really painful, but to think about it, you gave up this relationship so easily, i didnt play behind your back? i didnt hurt you as much. Its just some words. Cany you accept me a little like how i accepted you. ? Yeah, sometimes whatever you say its true. I shouldnt have try so hard to hold things back.. I am going to give myself a chance to relieve from all this pain, and forgetting all the pain that you give , since april 2006 , i step into your life when its so complicated, i played your games for so long. Hold on for the only reason that i believe. But it come to an end whereby i am still crying under my blanket. Hated this kind of life so much. Why do i have to dwell whereby you dont seems to be bothered anymore. ? Everyone knows that nobody is perfect. But you want me to be so perfect. For whatever that happens to me now, i dont know what is love ? Tell me what is love? So what if you are faithful ? People wont judge or stay because you are faithful and nice , they judge you by your negative points so forever he will see you as someone who will nvr change... Look ... it turns out to be hatred... i dont have to hate anyone in my life. I dont see a need. I will just tell my self that there is no RIGHT or WRONG ... Dont tell someone you have changed so much , because he will only judge you by your negative points. I gave up everything .. i gave up everything. I dont know whether am i saying things because i am angry, Buti typed it out following my heart.. You will never undersstand because you judge and left me due to what? Its all my fault. Because i have to accept that you are like that. But i feel really demoralised by you.. I dont want to hate you. please dont make me that way.

All over again...

2009-03-10T14:47:00.002+08:00

Starting back all over again... this week so tiring , so much thing.. Got to relieve myself.. Grandmother came to my house for 3 weeks.. Yeah , at least i am not lonely anymore. Love my grandmother.. She took care of me and i feel so blessed... Well, things do happens, but somethings its better to share than to live with it.. hmmm, relax.. give it a time... Nobody said it was easy... I can do it.....

That day, my ULTIMATE BROWNIES tasted great!!!!! Whoooo~~~~~~

Nice...

Picture of the baked brownies

2009-03-06T10:14:00.002+08:00

Additional Toppings

- Crushed Almonds

- Crushed Pistachos Nuts

- Crushed Walnuts

- Chocolate Chips

Overall Comments

Well , it may smells nice and looks good but its too soft and abit too sweet.

I think i know where is the problem, i put too much butter and my flour is not well beaten.

My next attempt will be later after work, I will bake will abit more Flour and 100grams less sugar and 50grams less unsalted butter.

People who tasted my brownies

Mum

Billy

Ruth

Ronald

Randall

Sari

My boyfriend-Rab

Thanks guys, i will definitely bake a nicer one today.. Number of trials and persistent makes a perfect bake..

I will workhard on it.. yes..

Super Fudge Brownies- DyannBakes

2009-03-05T16:46:00.004+08:00

Here's the perfect recipe for chewy gooey fudge brownies. Perfect with an ice cold glass of milk!! I will make these delicouse bar treats today before meeting my boyfriend!

What I Will Need
1 cup butter (2 sticks) 14 tablespoon
6 ounces unsweetened chocolate
2 cups granulated sugar also known as caster sugar
1 tablespoon of vanilla extract
4 eggs
1/2 cup all-purpose flour
1/2 cup chocolate chips or chopped nuts

Instructions

1. Preheat oven to 170 degress celsius. Butter and flour an 8 by 8 inch baking pan. ( i do not have one) -

2. Melt the butter and chocolate over medium-low heat, stirring untill well blended.

3. Remove butter/chocolate mixture from heat , and stir in sugar and vanilla extract.

4. Add eggs, one at a time , beating well after each addition.

5. Stir in flour; mix in chocolate chips or chopped nuts.

6. Spread batter evenlt in the prepared pan.

7. Sprinkle chocolate chips or chopped nuts evenly across surface.

8. Bake in a 325 degree celsius oven for about 40-45 minutes or untill brownie feels dry on the top.

9. Let the brownies cool in the pan on a rack.

10. When completely cool, cut into squares and store air-tight.

11. Cut into bit-sized pieces and enjoy!

Well , later i will rush home to bake this fudgey brownies for my family and boyfriend. Hope it turns out good. Will capture some picture of the outcome.!! Update tomorrow again...Loves

pictures of the first trial cookies!~~!

2009-03-05T10:22:00.004+08:00

TOO SWEET!!!

THESE COOKIES LOOKS GOOD BUT ITS TOO SWEET... UPSET!

pictures of the first trial cookies!~~!

2009-03-05T10:22:00.001+08:00

Beginner to bake

2009-03-05T10:20:00.001+08:00

Recently have been baking, but never turn out good!!! damn.. gonna try try try again and again!
Today i am going to bake CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES. This entire month spend almost 300 on buying baking stuff.. ah.. when will i be able to bake for dear to eat! i will try hard and harder.. I am going to spend on hersheys chocolate instead~!!! shit.. spend money again...

Ignite!

2009-03-04T16:11:00.002+08:00

We're back together and we will chrish for sure.
He will be so busy with his work and me, will be just staying home and find things to do.
I tried baking few days ago , the cookie never work. ah!!!
Got a new recipe just now, going to bake again when i reach home.

I dont know whether am i happy now.
I couldnt adapt to staying home so often,
I will really try..

Most of my time is surrounded by walls.
Morning , noon, evening, night!!
Suffocation no breathing...
Shag..

I need to run under the rain.. to wash away everything!!
Its so heavy...

I DECRIBE MYSELF AS A LONER!

hahax i am afraid of being lonely!

i will definitely remember for life!

2009-02-27T16:10:00.003+08:00

The conclusion is over..
Its such a waste,
me myself couldnt believe it.
But the weird thing is,
i can feel the waste but not the pain,
because i know myself what i am doing.
And its misunderstanding.
But his persistence is strong.
Its such a waste.
All effort gone to the bin.

When i feel like giving up, i always ask myself why i held for so long in the first place. Its worth all the wait.. Its worth loving you.. love...

Nothing Compares To you

2009-02-27T09:58:00.002+08:00

Unfortunately, i make mistakes easily without knowing that you are so hurt and upset.
I care only for my own feelings, but i've never think that you too will be hurt, it just that you dont show it.I'm sorry(to you)
Fortunately, these mistakes are usually not fatal, its just that its repeated mistakes and it makes you feel so impossible.
Lucky to know that you have this kind forgiving character that i really ADORE.(thank you -to you only)
Desperately, i want to change for a better, but i didnt know that i would make the mistakes again( sorry to you ) reason being, its hard to find someone that is another half of you. You're sweet.(only you)
Grateful to you, talking to me about my mistakes and wanting me to change, Honestly i do want to change and make real plans. I dont mean it at times( dear you)
By knowing this mistakes, action speaks louder than words. I've plans for the OPENING move to spark up the love again.( sincere to change for a better)
Give me another day, to prove that i will reverse the situation and correct those mistakes. ( love )
I dare to shout by the streets full of people that I LOVE YOU, and its really you the one that i want.

NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU!!

FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS...

its getting late

2009-02-24T14:11:00.002+08:00

24 feb 09,

Havent had my lunch yet, not hungry. Getting myself a baking oven this weekend and some bakeware.Gonna kill some time, i've been so free. Gonna bake bake bake and bake away all the feelings and eat them..!!

Pressure, stressful , fear.

Each after another, it makes me spin. Mind spinning with lots of problems. I know i cant be perfect, i know i cant change as much. But i am trying and exhausting. Because each and everytime i do the same mistake, i will be reprimanded. So much i wish you could understand me and give in to me. But you couldnt understand. its imbalance. I dont know what to do. I shut myself and ran away. i dont know how long i could run.. i;m tired..

I feel sorry for the times we had. But i know i cant do it all alone by myself.

If only i could have a peaceful one month. no scolding. . . its love life...

I am tired.. good night...

i want my own things to do

2009-02-19T13:32:00.002+08:00

Its my dream to always have my own business. But i feel so helpless, i know nothing at all. No one is there to actually help. I tried to be independant, but its this much ( ) only i can do. No capital, No lobang nothing. Seems like, i will have to work for him the whole time. Hate it, i want it on my own... I hate it..

5 years, I WILL give myself 5 years to save whatever that i need and roll it on my interest.( own small business) 5 years.. i will definitely.. have the capital to have a small one on my own.. save is all i have to do now...

Plan change....

2009-02-13T09:55:00.002+08:00

Changed my plan, i did not exchange my phone with taufiq.Instead i sold my i phone for $800/- to James. And bought N85 straight after getting the cash..Now using my N85 , likes the shape of the phone, but i think the speaker not that good. Thats the only thing that i dont like about the phone.. Otherwise. its still as good..

final decision

2009-02-11T14:42:00.002+08:00

i will be doing a one to one exchange with this guy name;taufiq.

I-PHONE to N96

BUT

from N96 to Xperia 1

Friday, will buy a phone for my mother birthday present..

What phone to buy?

Hmm

Gift of the month...

2009-02-11T08:26:00.002+08:00

Recieved a call from starhub saying that i will be receiving a $150 voucher to buy a new phone..
Yeah but i just got my new i-phone, now im changing again.
I havent decide on what phone to get, thought of getting X1 but its too expensive $698 with line..
Second choice will be N85, Third choice samsung innov8.

1,2 OR 3...

priotise....

2009-02-10T16:05:00.003+08:00

Neglection feeling is e most unhealthy signs,

i will definitelly be stronger than you..

Life with friends all around me....

One day..

2009-02-10T09:39:00.002+08:00

Laughters, quarrels, loud voices, movies, dinner...

smell....

will all be missed.....

It seems like...

2009-02-10T09:22:00.002+08:00

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;This love is difficult, but it's real.Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Seems like i could never be the one.
Hearing those words,it makes me weak.
I've got the chance to talk to you, ask question.
You dont seems to like it.
I'm wrong with words, wrong with expression , wrong at talking.
Thats me , you couldn't take it. You want to leave everytime you flared up.
I dont know how long more, i could tell you this much.
We both are tired.
This is the hardest of all that happens in my life.
I dont know what you will say next, i fear, fear to meet up anymore for the time being.
Because, everything seems to be wrong and provoking you.
If my intention is to make your life difficult and upset, than you're wrong.
Its very wrong for you to say that.
Because i fear of your voices and words which are very hurtful. I fear to hear them.
Its hurts. I am trying to think what you think and do what you think i should.
Its time and encouragement i need.

Silence....

chinese new year

2009-02-02T09:07:00.003+08:00

Soon, chinese new year is over..
Its another short year ahead.
What will my year be like.
Really wish to do some business,
start up small,
and planned to go bangkok this coming march with my cousin .
Wanna ask baby to come along with me..
Monday blues again today,
after 9 days of holidays...
very tiring, not enough rest..
Latter baby gonna pick me up,
Hope that we will stop argueing..
We both love,
but we just simply stubborn.
But still not so bad,
because its really true love that really hold us on..
really appreciate every effort made..
Much loves...

dont do this!

2009-01-22T09:33:00.002+08:00

Dont do this to any WOMEN.

Its their nature to talk and complain alot!

LIFE

2009-01-20T10:46:00.001+08:00

"EACH DAY IS A NEW LIFE. SEIZE IT . LIVE IT."

words kept inside me ...

2009-01-20T10:26:00.002+08:00

I kept some words within me,
not sharing with u,
so that u wont have a heavier burden.
Nobody knows what i'm thinking of last night,not even u, the precious u,
Sorry,i tried to control, control the situation.
But i still shed in the end.
Sorry to make u feel uneasy.
I will talk to you someday,one fine day.
I love you!

Seize it! live it !

2009-01-19T09:25:00.002+08:00

Did medi ,pedi and dyed my hair yesterday. Sit untill tired. Chinese new year next tuesday, so fast its another year. wow..Going back to malaysia this friday, yeah miss my great grand mother so much.. !!

Meeting boyfriend later! hmm hope dont quarrel if not very sianx !

Quote of the day-
"throw back the shoulders,let the heart sing, let the eyes flash, let the mind be lifted up, look upward and say to yourself...nothing is impossible!"
-_________ (forget the person's name)

Going to watch Little nyonya now.. lolx...

its been long

2009-01-12T09:38:00.002+08:00

Life has been real good and busy meeting boyfriend recently.
Dont feel like blogging recently,
heard lots of news about my friends.
Sometimes i dont understand how to talk to them,
hope one day they will realize whats right and wrong.
Choose your right friends if you couldnt have self control.
Life's too short to waste time doing nothing .
Having that kind of disease isnt easy but you made it so easy, thou i dont know you well, but i feel sad for u that u're wasting ur beautiful life.
Sry..

Angry

2008-12-19T15:30:00.002+08:00

Waited for so long, eveytime like that, meeting at 2pm but in the end untill now 3.30pm havent even hear from him..so angry, no time management, working under this kind of people just simply sucks.Both also the same, damn, one never even update anything about the salary, busy with his own things helping others but forget or neglected about the own company..damn, really regret never study hard, if even harder working with the same first name.. sigh.. gonna calm down and stay cool!!!!

GRRRR!!!!!

Moonlight Resonance

2008-12-19T13:46:00.004+08:00

Watching Moonlight Resonance right now.

Its a family affairs drama-very nice

Watch it at http://www.mysoju.com/ ! !

Sure you wont regret!!The new series will focus on Lee Sze Kei getting her family back together in the background of bakery business. A big emphasize is put on Lee Sze Kei's relationship with her husband Ha Yu and kids Moses Chan, Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung, Fala Chen, Lai Lok Yi, Vincent Wan and Ha Yu's stepdaughter Linda Chung, besides her relationship with her adversary Michelle Yim and sister Susanna Kwan.Romantic plots include Kate Tsui (Susanna Kwan's daughter) fighting against Tavia Yeung for Moses Chan, whilst she will also be involved with Chris Lai. There will be conflict between Raymond Lam and Bosco Wong (Linda Chung's colleague) for Linda Chung as Bosco Wong interferes as the third party between the loving pair. Susanna Kwan's character will have "sister-brother" relationship with Wayne Lai and Louis Yuen, meanwhile Fala Chen in her challenging role as a 'mute' girl will be romantically linked with Dexter Young.Throughout the series, Lee Sze Kei will try to run a steady business on her own in a bakery shop while her other family members live out a dream life with a billion-dollar fortune and big house. Lee Sze Kei has the custody of Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung and Fala Chen, whilst Ha Yu has the other children. The series also focuses on Susanna Kwan, from her good heart, plotting "evil" ideas to get the family back together, while Michelle Yim plots to have the family stay apart from each other. Lee Heung Kam doesn't make things any easier as she prefers his son (Ha Yu) to have Michelle as his wife than Lee Sze Kei. They frequently call Lee, "that fat thing" and family problems will arise when the family meet each other again.SynopsisThe new series will focus on Lee Sze Kei getting her family back together in the background of bakery business. A big emphasize is put on Lee Sze Kei's relationship with her husband Ha Yu and kids Moses Chan, Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung, Fala Chen, Lai Lok Yi, Vincent Wan and Ha Yu's stepdaughter Linda Chung, besides her relationship with her adversary Michelle Yim and sister Susanna Kwan.Romantic plots include Kate Tsui (Susanna Kwan's daughter) fighting against Tavia Yeung for Moses Chan, whilst she will also be involved with Chris Lai. There will be conflict between Raymond Lam and Bosco Wong (Linda Chung's colleague) for Linda Chung as Bosco Wong interferes as the third party between the loving pair. Susanna Kwan's character will have "sister-brother" relationship with Wayne Lai and Louis Yuen, meanwhile Fala Chen in her challenging role as a 'mute' girl will be romantically linked with Dexter Young.Throughout the series, Lee Sze Kei will try to run a steady business on her own in a bakery shop while her other family members live out a dream life with a billion-dollar fortune and big house. Lee Sze Kei has the custody of Raymond Lam, Tavia Yeung and Fala Chen, whilst Ha Yu has the other children. The series also focuses on Susanna Kwan, from her good heart, plotting "evil" ideas to get the family back together, while Michelle Yim plots to have the family stay apart from each other. Lee Heung Kam doesn't make things any easier as she prefers his son (Ha Yu) to have Michelle as his wife than Lee Sze Kei. They frequently call Lee, "that fat thing" and family problems will arise when the family meet each other again.

Friday

2008-12-19T08:39:00.006+08:00

Today grandfather is coming to my house from malaysia,because we are going to korea together this coming sunday 8.00am flight got to wake up at 4 to prepare and take taxi at 5 because we've to reach the airport at 6 to meet up with the tour guide.Days drew nearer to the day when i've to leave for Korea,but i'm not feeling excited at all i dont know why.Cant bear to leave this place although its only 8 days. I know i will be missing here alot..8 days, cant talk to baby or see baby face,gonna miss him to the max, and my maid Sari, gonna miss her fats! Yesterday played mahjong at jasley place, wa lau damn no luck, lose $130 sad, thought can win some money but than :( lose, bodoh hor.. hahax! heartapin lehx, but its like that, its either win or lose..woo hoo..bet i will stop for awhile..hahax. no money.. this month thought can save alot but in the end all no more again.. still owe singtel $600 phone bill and must give mommy $400 somemore next month,hur hur,die ah!! money money not enough.. think about other things to earn some money..Anyway, hope today i can get my 16gb I-phone, i get it for free, daddy give..hahax, if not i have to wait untill i come back from korea than got the 16gb i-phone..hmm, chinese new year is one month away, havent get any new clothes yet and i am afraid i will gain weight if i go korea..because the weather there is 4 degree celcius so when its cold its easier to get hungry..I cant have the mind set like last year whereby i tell myself that Holiday mahx, must enjoy, eat only later than decide how, But in the end came back, step onto the weighing machine!!!W-T-HELL gain 5KG.!!! look myself in the mirror, what a pig!!! friends all say i look like a pig, clothes all tight..that was the time i'm so worry damn, Mummy says that after korea she will go LONDON WEIGHT MANAGEMENT, so i will continue also to reduce down my thunder thighs.. Woo, when you're young life's good with parents.. hehex..Love you guys, and i want to thank you guys for the 2nd trip to korea.!! MUACKS..

- Picture attached, the four siblings in Wee family

Why is it all about you?

2008-12-16T11:41:00.002+08:00

Why is it all about you?

No no no no, no more than this..

I want it so much but i am scared..

No no no no, no more than that...

I miss it so much but .. its still a no NO no NO..

Well Well Well, life still goes on..

I want both..i miss it...

Sometimes, i am tired at times i feel good.

Still holding on to it..tightly..

I will just dream that i am having lots of fun in my life..

All i want now is a nice sleep with beautiful dreams.. thats good enough!!

Slowly, slowly, i will know what to do..

Moody~

2008-12-15T09:53:00.003+08:00

Woke up with a bad dream today,the dream seems so real feel so remas because keep thinking bout it,trying to control my emotions right now.

Today there's alot of things to do at work,so time flies..Its the fifteen today so tommorrow will be my Big auntie day sianx!!!

I was browsing through my friendster this morning,i've got 3 different feeling, Angry sad and forget about it. This 3 reactions after reading something.Damn i hate this feeling of mine!Wanna yell!!!!!i dont want to care anymore, like i say, i must remind myself to lead a better life on my own. I will be happy if my life is happy!!!state of mind!

Last saturday, went out with his family, went to marina barrage.Nothing much there but was quite tiring because we played catching, played wrestling, did piggy back..Wooh~tired...Never give a kid piggy back, once is never enough for them..Buay tahan!

Ate tulang last night with him at al-azhar at bukit timah.Delicious...very nice..still thinking about it now,want some more..baby eat 4 i eat 2!!!i eat 1 piece of bread he ate the rest of it..and a 6 coin prata..one cup of Ice tea , me drink ais kosong..Total we spent 11.20 cheap eh..yet so full ..:)

Today, dont know what's e plan, he is on leave for 2 days, we meet so often last week consecutive 3 days. total meet 4 days last week..wa its been long ever we meet so often.
Well maybe today we wont be meeting, even if we are maybe tomorrow go Pump petrol and buy my LAMI..must buy lami gooing to korea sure gain weight..

Leaving korea on 21- 28 going to miss him and my friends alot.. defitnitely..Please take care of yourself for me.

He wants kenzo perfume,hahax i said NO..after i buy you will go clubbing right.!! so no no perfume for you.But the fact i want to save some money to buy other things..

How do you guys pronouce (please)?
PLEASE....one tone.
my young god sister pronounce as P-E-L-E-A-S-E hor... hahahahax so funny!!!

okae, after thinking about thie pelease at least i can smile a little.. hmmm:)

JUSTUS!

2008-12-12T09:52:00.001+08:00

♥Simply just us♥

Love

2008-12-12T09:16:00.005+08:00

Went out with Danial and Baby last night to sentosa for 3 luge rides.Danial insisted for more rides,but these two adult are getting bored..Lolx.First time meeting Danial,i enjoyed my time with this two fellas..Haha, supposingly this coming saturday will be me and baby's date, but i decided to bring Danial along and have fun together.I love his huge bright eyes!!!Love it..

Well about today,i wont be meeting baby,My two besties wants to meet me after work.sweet!Its been 2 weeks we never meet up.Wonder how are they, got gain weight ? Or any new gossips! Girls i will be going Korea on 21st december.Bet u guys gonna miss me like hell!!! HOO hoo HOOO hoo.. hAVE A great chritmas together!!Love..

Anyway, i'm in my office doing nothing again..Its getting real bored, and the enthusiasm to work its real low and its dieing.Sry, help help help..I need a new life a new work place !! But i will dissapoint my dad if i were to go.Haix how, what should i do? I have been thinking about it but still its the same..HAIX!

Next,i looked at the my friends pictures,They could capture very nice pictures. I like it alot, and now i want to save money and go for photography courses and buy a camera for myself. So that i could take lots of pictures and attached it with my life story..A scrapbook for my future kids to show my kids my life before them.. Whoo, what a life ...

I want it only with you...

Welcome to my paradise....

2008-12-11T09:20:00.003+08:00

Just called my friend from malaysia,she will be delivering in another 2 weeks time,time flies and that was really fast.She is grumping about her weight, she gain 20kg hahax,so scary.Kinda miss her, she;s the one whom i could talk to,Memories are still clear back then.Anyway,am gonna wish her all the best, i couldnt go back to visit her,as i will be in korea in another 2 weeks for holiday.All the best my friend.

Well, last night i went out with rab and luge crew.Ate the chicken wing at singal selalu.Shiok one of my favourite. I reach home at 3.30 last night and now i'm feeling really sleepy, buay tahan! Love gonna pick me up after work today, going for movies, but i'm afraid i might fall asleep. I miss my bed and pillow....

2nd january 09 will be Irene, shuxia and me our 10 years anniversary.Thought of a trip to genting but not sure whether dear will allow me to..Have to discuss first..I bet its gonna be real fun..whoo hoo...~~~

Too lazy to type any..

2008-12-10T10:16:00.004+08:00

Finally...

2008-12-05T10:55:00.002+08:00

Finally, i manage to find my own life...
Anyway, i'm at batam again today,
it will be the last day coming here for this week.
Monday is public holiday,
Hari Raya Haji..
My plans for weekends will be,
Saturday, maybe i will meet up with baby,
otherwise i will just stay home.:)
Love staying home..less stress..!:)*
Sunday, i will bring 5 kids out for sentosa..
2 of them is my brother, Ronald and randall.
3 others kids is my cousin from malaysia..
Headache, dont know how to take care..:(
Later my lunch i want to have otah and fish soup again.. Yeah...
will blog again later or tomorrow..
byebye"")

i want a getaway trip to BALI!

2008-12-05T10:45:00.002+08:00

I've always been wanting to go bali.

The place is nice,

people there are beautiful.

The sun there is awesome.

The nightlife there is crazy.

The rooms there are cozy.

The currency there is just so wonderful.

It was a shopping paradise for girls like us!

Omg, i want to go !!

Desperately wanting to go for a trip.

I want to go with my girl-friends.

I-WANT-TO-GO-A-S-A-P...

FLEW......

you've just reach BALI... yeah!!!

Fishy..

2008-12-04T12:56:00.002+08:00

Whoa, i currently at batam,P.T WESTEC checking salary.I'm havingmy favourite food ,Slice Fish Soup Bee Hoon. so fishy...lox, and oTAH! whoo hoo...shiok.. i will be taking 3.30pm batam time ferry at Habourbay..will reach singapore around 5.30 after that i will be meeting william to pass him some things. Hmm seem so pack, i like...Anyway tomorrow is friday and i will be still coming to batam again, very tiring and need lots of rest..This week is quite stressful for me,and i will be doing some weekend shopping to pamper myself after solong..looking forward.. well...i gtg back to work.. will blog again... :)

Under your spotlight....

2008-12-03T10:50:00.002+08:00

I just want to say out how sick i am about this,

after so long its still the same.

Sometimes i feel its not meant to be,

sometimes i feel your're the one.

I want my say,i want to be heard and not to be blamed for all.

I am telling you, i am getting real sick and tired, and wish to try no more.

If things never gonna change,

i shall bless you with better one.

I dont want to make your life difficult anymore,

aint gonna be the burden no more.

You never want to listen to what i want,

i'm tired of telling you so much,

it's dieing inside..

The days drew near..and time really doesnt wait at all...

I want a new life..

Someone who appreciates...

Sorrow sinks deep inside my heart......

Recently taken

2008-12-02T10:02:00.008+08:00

Flu and sore throat

2008-12-02T09:31:00.002+08:00

Woo, back to work today, after a long break, supposingly going to thailand on the 27th of nov due to the crisis there trip was cancelled, all my shopping spirits gone, i was so sad the last weekends, 2 of my favourite heels was bitten by my dog.There goes my $190 my everbest heels.Now i am always wearing the same heel to work, charles and keith in black.Anyway, nose block and sore throat today, i think i'm getting sick soon..gonna get more rest.Tommorow i'm going batam,tonight i die die must sleep hard.hahax, if not i wont be able to wake up for my ferry at 8.30am.. Gonna get back to work, blog again when i'm free..

Hope brian Quinn

2008-11-25T10:12:00.002+08:00

Hope by Brian Quinn

When all about you is black with gloom,

And all you feel is pending doom.

When your bones are racked with grim despair

-When every breath is a gasp for air.

Keep on going,

though you need to grope,

For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,

As your will to live has been bereft.

You've lost it all, it's just no use!

You can end it all,

you need no excuse.

But throw away that piece of rope,

And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,

Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.

This is your life and you can make a new start,

By ignoring the brain -

just follow the heart.

Taking baby steps in order to cope,

And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,.

one day at a time,

Though the road be steep and hard to climb.

The hurts of the past -

they should be dead.

The fears of the future are all in your head.

Just live in the present

and refuse to mope

Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

thank you dad

2008-11-24T10:17:00.001+08:00

Dad bought Neverfull medium for me . For my birthday and a ang bao .. thank you dad!

why is it so different?

2008-11-20T12:15:00.002+08:00

Why is it so different?

why do i feel so different?

i tried, but its not seen.

its seems like to them, its always unchange.

It seems like to those, i am just talking .

But i did, i know exactly what i am doing.

But why always, alone and alone.

Why always be blamed for everything.?

Why do i feel its going to be.....

Omg , nobody can help me,

nobody i wish to talk to !

nobody...

i am down with everything..

nothing seems to interest me anymore,

for whatever its going on now, its seems like an ending.

technology kills.

kills me my feelings.

Plays me around..

stir around like a cup of coffee...

I'm lost,

i lost control of myself.

totally,

now that i feel so hopeless..

i just want to get away..

i dont tag anyone here, because i just want me myself and i...

everyone says life is so wonderful.

why is mine like that?

to think about it.

my life have got more miserable than happiness..

unless. i could learn to ignore .

But i lose myself.

what a disgrace!

i'm ashammed, because i cant and never succeed..

god , please lead me..

i feel so painful, but those, dont seems to know.

those, thought i likes being in this pain , but no.!

i hate it..

but i think of others before i do.

that's why i bear this pain.

but i cant take it anymore.

cant take it anymore.

cant take it any......

-more.......

Blading at east coast park!

2008-11-20T09:54:00.000+08:00

While waiting for the two oldies!-william and steven

We are so boring that we decide to take some pictures first..

Well we start blading at 7.30pm so late!

Didnt manage to take pictures because we cant even really manage to play well ahahax.

More than 5 years nvr blade. But i am still better than my COUSIN.. he is so slow! slowpoke..

Lolx. and we went to kallang airport food centre, steven seafood stall to eat seafood, crab, mussels, squid .. stingrays.. wooo so full and went back home after makan. stupid cousin go double O. crazy, he needs to work the next day. he is sure going to be late again!

seems so hard...

2008-11-19T16:32:00.000+08:00

It seems so hard to fulfill task,
when nobody knows deep down inside what's going on.
Why isnt it easy at all?

Dinner at MARCHE. guest from thailand AH SO!

2008-11-19T09:50:00.000+08:00

After work, steven bring us for dinner at Vivocity's marche, i ate rosti with chicken sausages and 3 FRESH OYSTER.. Met up with this guest from thailand Ah So.. Mr steven wee eat alot of food and he drink quite alot.. so scary. I think he ate too much that he suggest we go for jog and blading tomorrow at EAST COAST PARK.. lolx...Total he paid for $276..

ATTEND: elisha wee, steven wee, ysabel wee, william wee and ah so.

thanks to steven! who ate 2 dozens of OYSTERS! puke...

Out with BABY!

2008-11-18T09:37:00.000+08:00

Went out with b today to JB and orchard for movies and boat quay for a drink.

We ate at the sundanese restaurant,-what also dont have!!

We watch this funny movie -TROPIC THUNDER actors, BLACK,STILLER AND DOWNEY.JR

I rate this movie 3/5 stars.. but its really funny and some parts are really gross..

Me and baby went for a drink at arcepelo i think so..hahaxz forrget the name but its at BOAT QUAY. Very long since then, i often drink with baby. Actually i stop drinking already but than now i drink back.sigh. anyway, i will still stop one day soon..real soon. But let me tell you what, tiger always come first when it comes to choice of beer.

And i reach home at 4...woo tired.

thanks dear for always acc me when i want to..Love

2008-11-16T09:31:00.000+08:00

It was Elise's precious son's 1st birthday..

Nobody was there except me and clair!!!

LOLX..

Stupid dog....

2008-11-15T09:11:00.000+08:00

I went out to fetch my grandmother from auntie house and when i reach home,

the Buddy(dog) suddenly runs out and gave me a scare.!

Behind me is a shoerack, and i hit my leg againts the shoerack due to my reaction ...

I am so angry that i yell and curse at the dog.

Ouch its really painful...

And my mother another typical auntie,

shouted at me in chinese,

EH- COME-BACK-DONT-MAKE-SO-MUCH-NOISE-LA!

i am like going crazy after she said that!

TOTAL BLANK!!!

Things we waste... from IBN QAYYIM

2008-11-14T16:31:00.003+08:00

Our Knowledge

Wasted by not taking actions with it.

Our Actions

Wasted by commiting them without sincerity.

Our Wealth

Wasted on things that will not bring us AJR. We waste our money, status,authority,on things which have no benefits in this life.

Our Hearts

Wasted because they are empty from the love of allah and the feeling of longing to go to him, and a feeling of peace and contentment, in its place, our hearts are filled with something or someone else.

Our Love

Emotional love is disdirected not towards allah but towards something or someone else.

Our Time

Wasted, not used properly, to compensate for which that has passed, by doing what is righteous to make up for past deed.

Our Intellect

Waste on things which are not beneficial, that are detrimental to society and the individual,not in contemplation or reflection.

LET US ACT NOW, LET US CHANGE NOW...BROTHERS AND SISTERS...

BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.....

It reminds me of you

2008-11-14T13:38:00.002+08:00

Everytime, i log into my blog, i listen to this song REALIZE the only person i think of is my Bf-rab!!

LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!

unlucky

2008-11-14T13:34:00.002+08:00

Very unlucky, all the movies that i want to watch is either cant be loaded,not available

,too slow, too blur or lots of excuse like its LICENSED.So unlucky, sO boring at work

nothing to do, and amanda is offline.No one to talk to..

Think i want to buy a fish bowl and a fish and put it on my table,

so that if i am boring i could play with the fish..

Now i am so so so so so BORING!!!!!!

SOS please, somebody help me.!

Barevolleb

2008-11-14T12:11:00.002+08:00

Reach office at 12 today,

i went to UOB bank at bukit batok just now..so many people :(

I'm having my tea-break now,

Nutrisoy and 2 wheat biscuit.

Office is so empty today,

janet went batam and malina went back home.

I'm going to www.ovguide.com to watch some movies after my work is done.

Friday night, got no where to go..

maybe have a dinner with baby and than go home straight.

Well where should i go for dinner, feel like going somewhere new..:)

Another 13 days, i will be going to Bangkok for shopping..yeapie...!

Waiting for the day...

Luge---

2008-11-13T16:31:00.004+08:00

LUGE!!ONCE IS NEVER ENOUGH

Looking at these pictures, reminds me of the times at luge..

I miss working with all of you.

I can just write, and think of all of you.

Once a luge crew, always..a luge crew in heart...

Ysabel misses all of you..

''human trafficking''

2008-11-13T13:54:00.003+08:00

Hundreds of thousands of young women have vanished from their everyday lives-forced by violence into a hellish existence of brutality and prostitution...

Just finish watching this movie.. 9.5/10 stars! It's a must...

After watching this movie, i feel that life is an adventure. You never know what will happen to you the next day. After being humilliated, will YOU be able to stand up strong once again...its hard....

Learn to treasure your love ones, before anything goes wrong its too late to regret. We live only once, so everyday is precious, as time doesnt wait for us. Always always remindd yourself that, every problem there is a solution to it. Dont give up, even if you failed, PEOPLE succeed when they keep trying.

Today you maybe sad about your relationship, work, ur hair, ur face or whatever...but always always tell yourself that time doesnt wait.. make yourself happy.. because you dont know your own destiny..

What will you be tomorrow is already stated.. treasure...

-time doesnt wait for you- BABY wakes me up with this..

life is full of UPs and DOWNs ...

stay strong..i must and i will tell myself this everyday, so it becomes a habit... to improve my way of living LIFE!

MAAF SAYANG AKU....

2008-11-13T13:18:00.000+08:00

MAAF MAAF MAAF!!!

Why am i so possesive?

2008-11-13T10:02:00.003+08:00

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY AM I SO POSSESIVE AND PROTECTIVE OVER MY BF..
HOW DO I LEARN TO BE NOT POSSESIVE?
DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ALL WOMAN OR I AM THE ONLY ONE?
I NEED SOLUTION AND HELP..
IF SOMEONE COULD TALK TO ME ABOUT IT..
BECAUSE SOMETIMES, THINGS TURN OUT BADLY WHEN I DIDNT MEAN IT!!
HELP HELP

its me

2008-11-13T09:23:00.001+08:00

"W henever i get sad or pained enough to cry I cant hold it in no matter how hard i try I just can't. I don't get a lot of friends that way but I just can't help it I mean when I have to i do it I just can't stop it if I want to."

Eugene--

2008-11-13T08:40:00.002+08:00

Yesterday , baby pick me up at grandma's place, and he drove to SENTOSA. Today will be the first day i meeting eugene, he's a nice guy,Honest, i think he's romantic due to overhearing some things he said.LOLX. And i am amazed when he could tell what's in my mind, and my feelings.Lolx, at first when i start talking to him, very stressful, as i cant really understands the accent, but after awhile i get used to it. Wish to visit newzealand one day, maybe next year.. Got to start saving money.Yesterday, i think we waste most of our time waiting for othe luge guys, actually is quite wasted..Anyway its raining so my plan to REVERSE BUNGY is cancelled..We took our dinner at 11 plus!!! So hungry, baby got frustrated because plans screwed up.We ate durian and went to mustafa to bring the BIG GUY (EUGENE) to buy a new pair of SHOE! His pair of shoe is terribly torn!! hahax. Yesterday,i got different feelings, and i hate most of them, i want to learn to get rid of them..i will defitenitely find a solution.I dont like it, but i cant show it. I cant.. hmmm.. i dont know why but i dont want to feel like yesterday anymore.!!

Anyway,
-its my first time talking to raama and rose yesterday, they are leaving on sunday, BON VOYAGE YOU BOTH.
-i feel bad about something but i just treat it like nth has happen before.

EUGENE!-
Hope to see you again next time, if there is a chance, me and rab will visit you at new zealand.!

-hope baby feel better today, sorry dear ! ( b, minta maaf,i just care.)

Muacks...

After lunch

2008-11-12T12:07:00.003+08:00

Very full, i ate organic rice with curry mutton, bittergourd and tofu...

so full now, feeling regret, my tummy... OMG

now is not 12 o'clock dont know whether am i meeting b later, yesterday he did reverse bungy and swing with his friend from newzealand and both uncle tiong and rudy.

he said, he will bring me go, but tell you what, hahax i action actually i am very SCARED..!!!

i remember that time i took the SPACESHOT with him, mimi, zubair.. wa can die.. heart stop beating for 2 sec... woo, but its a life experience.. once in a life time.. BUT will i do it again tonight? HMMM very good question!..

I miss him, i want his hugs!!!

How i feel at work now!!!!!

2008-11-12T11:25:00.005+08:00

I WANNA YELL...

TRYING TO CALM DOWN NOW....

FEEL LIKE HELL!!!!!

DISSATISFACTION....

BUT BABY DONT KNOW BECAUSE HE GOT FULL DAY MEETING TODAY..

DONT WANT TO DISTURB HIM...

ARGHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHHH...

FELT BETTER BY A BIT!!!

IMM DAISO!

2008-11-11T16:44:00.001+08:00

Bought hair clips, dustbin, colour pens for only $6 at daiso!!